Wednesday, August 5, 2009
haha. just when i thought i was bad, i saw the worse. my gawd. allow me for a moment to be arrogant and pompous and laugh at what i've been denied for so long.
weird dreams started to come back, but well, they all worked quite well, at least i know that despite all the happenings in real life, at least when i'm sleeping, i could live a life somewhat different from now.
so yes, everytime someone leaves this world, he/she left behind a huge score of stuff to settle, in this case, everything else is settled, except for the gossips behind. like whatever. i mean, now i realise what the hell is call 'filthy rich'. and it all made alot of sense, at the same time, doesn't make any sense at all as to why he only has a minature wardrobe which malfunctioned long time ago, and that dream house seemed so far away to him... it made absolutely no sense at all to me.
the other day mum saw me complained into the phone, and it's just one day into the funeral. she said:
人生就不过如此
when i looked at it, yeah it does seem quite true, i mean afterall, to be cliche a little, we're here today, we might not be tomorrow. but i can't deny the fact that i don't want to live for a future that has not arrived, and missed everything i have now.
perhaps that's the reason why i like to revisit the past. like spending time watching shows over again.
can't wait for isolation from books. and a great day of kickin' butts. the other day i totally kicked aturo's ass with just 5 hits, almost a perfect victory, when the other time we spent like hell to fight him. well, waiting for thursday again. when i finally get to showdown with my da ge :)
