Wednesday, October 22, 2008
incredible, i swear this is the most funniest time i had in Toys 'rus. whahahahaha!!!!! whoever is responsible for the unbreakable laugh, pls own up yourself. and i saw a halloween scythe and trident!!!!!!! I WANT!!!!!!!!! and not to mention the little kid with the vampire mask and sword. whahahahaha!!!!!!
ooooo, finally, after vivo is built, i got to play with the wading pool, and it was drizzling. and singing songs in public, and laughing at SOMEONE's unglam-ness. whahahahahaha!!!!!
AND THE HAMSTERS ARE SO CUTE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
i guess there are things that requires tremendous courage and ability to put up a front for. and i felt that at times, i really lack that. was walking home from the mrt with noots playing in my ear, and on usual days the song will be pumping my spirits up, but somehow today was different and it pumped it down. and walking through the crowd outside the ntuc was in fact terrible as i guess even without my glasses, i'm sure my eyes were shiny. tilting my head sorta helped a little.
but i guess what really stopped me was Raiin. i knew Raiin won't forgive me if i were to even let loose one millilitre. i mean, i am after all, Raiin. and that's who she is, what she is and how she is. it's no longer about the impregnable icy fortress to protect one's vunerability but shutting everything out. that was one lesson i had to learn the hard way.
it's about building up a fortress to not only protect oneself, but also an army to protect others who are our loved ones.
and to achieve that, it is inevitably saying Raiin is someone hard on the outside, soft on the inside. and it is not easy to reach that. because when it hits, it does hits hard. but that's where Raiin comes in. regardless of what happen, she is a pillar of support for me. but she's part of me, someone i want to become. that's what she do. stop me from falling, gives me a hand when i stagger, and push me forward.
i guess the line defining me and Raiin is blurred, but i liked it better. a path i chose, one that i know, i shouldn't and wouldn't regret.
i'm glad despite being a boat lost out in the ocean, thinking that Raiin is long gone, i guess she has returned, or she was there all along.
incredible, i swear this is the most funniest time i had in Toys 'rus. whahahahaha!!!!! whoever is responsible for the unbreakable laugh, pls own up yourself. and i saw a halloween scythe and trident!!!!!!! I WANT!!!!!!!!! and not to mention the little kid with the vampire mask and sword. whahahahaha!!!!!!
ooooo, finally, after vivo is built, i got to play with the wading pool, and it was drizzling. and singing songs in public, and laughing at SOMEONE's unglam-ness. whahahahahaha!!!!!
AND THE HAMSTERS ARE SO CUTE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
i guess there are things that requires tremendous courage and ability to put up a front for. and i felt that at times, i really lack that. was walking home from the mrt with noots playing in my ear, and on usual days the song will be pumping my spirits up, but somehow today was different and it pumped it down. and walking through the crowd outside the ntuc was in fact terrible as i guess even without my glasses, i'm sure my eyes were shiny. tilting my head sorta helped a little.
but i guess what really stopped me was Raiin. i knew Raiin won't forgive me if i were to even let loose one millilitre. i mean, i am after all, Raiin. and that's who she is, what she is and how she is. it's no longer about the impregnable icy fortress to protect one's vunerability but shutting everything out. that was one lesson i had to learn the hard way.
it's about building up a fortress to not only protect oneself, but also an army to protect others who are our loved ones.
and to achieve that, it is inevitably saying Raiin is someone hard on the outside, soft on the inside. and it is not easy to reach that. because when it hits, it does hits hard. but that's where Raiin comes in. regardless of what happen, she is a pillar of support for me. but she's part of me, someone i want to become. that's what she do. stop me from falling, gives me a hand when i stagger, and push me forward.
i guess the line defining me and Raiin is blurred, but i liked it better. a path i chose, one that i know, i shouldn't and wouldn't regret.
i'm glad despite being a boat lost out in the ocean, thinking that Raiin is long gone, i guess she has returned, or she was there all along.
.~*^Twilight Ring^*~.:
Monday, October 20, 2008
another thanks to Jia^2, and shi hui for the lovely pouch which saved my day.
finally played pool, but NOT what i expected. if i had known, i'll keep my bloody mouth shut... bloody playing with two pros, and i was right, cleared half the table even before i sink any. RAAAAH.
grads ice for learning how to play pool.
hectic week, near death situations, just like how the bus uncle can miss me not going down the bus and continued to drive into the parking lots for buses...
hmm... been wondering, if what i did that time was right or not. because i certainly didn't expect this to reach this point. but sometimes, i do realise i made the wrong decision, or perhaps i didn't do enough. but either way, as confused and lost as i might be, i'm sure after the training from handling 4 assignments in 4 windows at one time should have taught me to be stronger to face other challenges in life.
and even it turns out to be a wrong decision, perhaps one day i'll look back and conclude i shouldn't have done it or just back out of it, i think, i can only say 'sorry', i'm just not of that caliber.
things have certainly changed alot. gone is Mrs. Jaegerjaques, long gone are those girls that never made it to Raiin's level. but i know, i need to find Raiin back again. and that's something, i intend to do by returning, this time, with my head held high, as i have told my mum. i'm glad and relief that day i finally won her approval. i guess i've always hoped for it, but never expect to even achieve that.
at least it is a step out. but by discarding Mrs. Jaegerjaques, it does make me weaker. unless i recover Raiin, else i'll really be saying sorry at the end of the day to people whom i never in a million years want to.
another thanks to Jia^2, and shi hui for the lovely pouch which saved my day.
finally played pool, but NOT what i expected. if i had known, i'll keep my bloody mouth shut... bloody playing with two pros, and i was right, cleared half the table even before i sink any. RAAAAH.
grads ice for learning how to play pool.
hectic week, near death situations, just like how the bus uncle can miss me not going down the bus and continued to drive into the parking lots for buses...
hmm... been wondering, if what i did that time was right or not. because i certainly didn't expect this to reach this point. but sometimes, i do realise i made the wrong decision, or perhaps i didn't do enough. but either way, as confused and lost as i might be, i'm sure after the training from handling 4 assignments in 4 windows at one time should have taught me to be stronger to face other challenges in life.
and even it turns out to be a wrong decision, perhaps one day i'll look back and conclude i shouldn't have done it or just back out of it, i think, i can only say 'sorry', i'm just not of that caliber.
things have certainly changed alot. gone is Mrs. Jaegerjaques, long gone are those girls that never made it to Raiin's level. but i know, i need to find Raiin back again. and that's something, i intend to do by returning, this time, with my head held high, as i have told my mum. i'm glad and relief that day i finally won her approval. i guess i've always hoped for it, but never expect to even achieve that.
at least it is a step out. but by discarding Mrs. Jaegerjaques, it does make me weaker. unless i recover Raiin, else i'll really be saying sorry at the end of the day to people whom i never in a million years want to.
.~*^Twilight Ring^*~.:
Wednesday, October 15, 2008
20 years old le, another year, another responsibility, another realization.
first of all let me thank a 'few' people... starting in chronological order...
mummy and daddy, for the surprise cake which is chocolate... whahaha on saturday after dinner with ice and stone brother. mummie and daddie sure knows my 'kuan', chocolate addict chocoholic, blah blah. wheeeeeeeeee i love the cake!!!!
sunday, thanks to
Ice pal, you have alot of names so just make do with this one haha. thanks for all your efforts for that very nice 'card', i think card is wrong, that 'album' of wishes which i know you took like hell long to make. thanks very very very much!!!!!
Ning aka fire chicken. whahaha thanks for your effort also, i didn't really expect that second voice to be you, but well, i should have figured it out anyway hahaha. thanks for the company too!
Kimmy aka salted water. WHAHAHAHAHA!!!!! i must say the recent meet ups with you are very fun, sorry to be so mean about it whahahah but hey, at least, there was some fun right? thanks for 'surprise' which i mostly figured thanks to your 'po zhan'. whahahahahaha!
Stone aka Brother. hmm... can't say much cos i just know you recently, but really appreciate and treasure you as a brother because of the many similarties we have and that you are always suaning people!!!! whahahaha!!!! poor ice, poor kimmy, poor everyone. ohohoho!! thanks for the company on many occasions, jy train, and please combine your sms-s please. -.-
Wilson aka tree. thanks for the cake, which is NOT THAT fattening i must say. which in the end it's also chocolate whahahahaha!!!!! and thanks for the dinner, which was spent watching arrows flying around and knifes shinning around. Tree is not an embarrassing name, in fact it is a good name due to the global warming issue now. whahahaha!!!! lastly thanks, and -.-thanks for the almond jelly which despite attempts of snatching the money from you, you still paid for it. and turns out it's also Bro's fav, i dunno whether to cry or to laugh...
then. tuesday, thanks to
Huiwen lee aka unglam auntie. thanks for buying the cake, it's in a way still chocolate whahahahaha!!!! and it's freaking nice. that's why i say chocolate cakes are the nicest.
Angie my gym partner in crime. whahahaha!!!! thanks for all the gym trainings so far! let's run further! thanks for the wishes!
Sarih aka rockstar. whooohoo!!! nice card!!! you were right when your resume said you are creativly inclined. i absolutely love it!
Janice aka paris. thanks for the wishes whaha and the hug craze.
Xiao hui! ya, nice try on forgetting my bdae whahahaha! it didn't work!!!!! whahahaha! thanks for all too, and hope everything goes well for you! and yes, where's the zoo trip? i wan see my polar bear.
Wendy aka rate buster. ooo you called me Raiin!!!!! first time someone did that!!!! hahaha!!!! thanks for everything too!
Yvonne aka Mana. though we seldom talk much even in class, but i'm really happy to have known you and worked with you on projects, our cool brother! stay cool always!!! thanks for the wishes too!
Vincent aka rate buster. i am NOT a rate buster, you and wendy are. but thanks for the wishes. btw i'm NOT a rate buster...
Shaun, Jake ad Stef, thanks for your wishes too!
Zephyris aka the ultimate maniac of VK and Anime. thanks for the polar bear who is now known as icicles and not frostiness, hey, frostiness sounds so gay can... icicles is better!!!! it's a weapon!!!! yay! thanks for the 'rapu sare mashita'. i tell you i'm still laughing at it.
ohkay, that's all for thanks.
lastly, as learnt from law of attraction.
i'm grateful for everything that i have.
20 years old le, another year, another responsibility, another realization.
first of all let me thank a 'few' people... starting in chronological order...
mummy and daddy, for the surprise cake which is chocolate... whahaha on saturday after dinner with ice and stone brother. mummie and daddie sure knows my 'kuan', chocolate addict chocoholic, blah blah. wheeeeeeeeee i love the cake!!!!
sunday, thanks to
Ice pal, you have alot of names so just make do with this one haha. thanks for all your efforts for that very nice 'card', i think card is wrong, that 'album' of wishes which i know you took like hell long to make. thanks very very very much!!!!!
Ning aka fire chicken. whahaha thanks for your effort also, i didn't really expect that second voice to be you, but well, i should have figured it out anyway hahaha. thanks for the company too!
Kimmy aka salted water. WHAHAHAHAHA!!!!! i must say the recent meet ups with you are very fun, sorry to be so mean about it whahahah but hey, at least, there was some fun right? thanks for 'surprise' which i mostly figured thanks to your 'po zhan'. whahahahahaha!
Stone aka Brother. hmm... can't say much cos i just know you recently, but really appreciate and treasure you as a brother because of the many similarties we have and that you are always suaning people!!!! whahahaha!!!! poor ice, poor kimmy, poor everyone. ohohoho!! thanks for the company on many occasions, jy train, and please combine your sms-s please. -.-
Wilson aka tree. thanks for the cake, which is NOT THAT fattening i must say. which in the end it's also chocolate whahahahaha!!!!! and thanks for the dinner, which was spent watching arrows flying around and knifes shinning around. Tree is not an embarrassing name, in fact it is a good name due to the global warming issue now. whahahaha!!!! lastly thanks, and -.-thanks for the almond jelly which despite attempts of snatching the money from you, you still paid for it. and turns out it's also Bro's fav, i dunno whether to cry or to laugh...
then. tuesday, thanks to
Huiwen lee aka unglam auntie. thanks for buying the cake, it's in a way still chocolate whahahahaha!!!! and it's freaking nice. that's why i say chocolate cakes are the nicest.
Angie my gym partner in crime. whahahaha!!!! thanks for all the gym trainings so far! let's run further! thanks for the wishes!
Sarih aka rockstar. whooohoo!!! nice card!!! you were right when your resume said you are creativly inclined. i absolutely love it!
Janice aka paris. thanks for the wishes whaha and the hug craze.
Xiao hui! ya, nice try on forgetting my bdae whahahaha! it didn't work!!!!! whahahaha! thanks for all too, and hope everything goes well for you! and yes, where's the zoo trip? i wan see my polar bear.
Wendy aka rate buster. ooo you called me Raiin!!!!! first time someone did that!!!! hahaha!!!! thanks for everything too!
Yvonne aka Mana. though we seldom talk much even in class, but i'm really happy to have known you and worked with you on projects, our cool brother! stay cool always!!! thanks for the wishes too!
Vincent aka rate buster. i am NOT a rate buster, you and wendy are. but thanks for the wishes. btw i'm NOT a rate buster...
Shaun, Jake ad Stef, thanks for your wishes too!
Zephyris aka the ultimate maniac of VK and Anime. thanks for the polar bear who is now known as icicles and not frostiness, hey, frostiness sounds so gay can... icicles is better!!!! it's a weapon!!!! yay! thanks for the 'rapu sare mashita'. i tell you i'm still laughing at it.
ohkay, that's all for thanks.
lastly, as learnt from law of attraction.
i'm grateful for everything that i have.
.~*^Twilight Ring^*~.:
Friday, October 10, 2008
omg!!! 200th post already!!!! incredible!!!!!
omg!!! 200th post already!!!! incredible!!!!!
ohkay hurumph. reopen. 12 different cameras blah blah blah
yeah yeah, the only way to shoot this scene is from 12 different camera angles with birds flying around.
i kinda like that guy who said this. well, whatever.
so. a look back on the 199 posts there are. i'm pretty sure most of them are spent on rambling about people, how life sux, how this how that, how childish blah blah blah. but hey, without them, life is like a narrow stream right? but whatever, when time comes i'm sure i'll be here rambling again. but who cares? this is my blog!
so today's friday. the past week has been, hectic? pretty much. midterms, this, that, blah blah blah. yeah, school life, can't complain.
skipped swimming today, because i was totally tired yesterday because thanks to a certain someone...
and in the end a wonderful day destroyed by putting down all my school work and going to my dad's place. i still smell like that place...
oh and er note to these people. i know what you are up to. Bro, your story wasn't convincing enough. kimmy, i'm not as dumb as you think.
have i mentioned how much i love glacier? and iceberg?
i love my glacier, i love my iceberg.
i love big ice lands, i love the polar bears.
i love the artic, it's such a perfect place.
boom de ah da, boom de ah da, boom de ah da, boom de ah da.
WHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHA!!!! i'm NUTS! but hey. glacier is cute. and iceberg is cool. since he accompanied me through my toughest times.
I LOVE YOU ICEBERG AND GLACIER!!!
have i mentioned that i hate my phone? now you can see why i hate it so much. just look at iceberg's picture....
oh ya. no more Mrs Jaegerjaques. it's Raiin from now.
.~*^Twilight Ring^*~.:
Monday, October 6, 2008
to this person who has just became the centre of our usual gossip at school:
yes you. don't have to look else where, a more pompous, arrogant, act-cool loser would be harder to find. i can only say that it is with great regret and with terrible luck that we, happen to share the same room and time slot as you do. and before you get high and mighty, think the reverse. because times can change, and tables can turn, and the wheels on the bus go round and round. someday, you might find yourself in a situation less than satisfactory than you would have hoped, imagined, or even wanted. but as the proverb goes, 'what goes up, must come down'. you are just 'touched by an angel', and some day that effect is going to wear off. and when that day comes, the one sitting and laughing wouldn't be you anymore.
to this person who is by far the biggest loser i have had the misfortune of turning my nose to:
get a life. because as hard as you try, i think you'll probably be better off living in the 80's where labor might still be the 'latest trend' around in society. i'm sure i'm one of those 'friends who are against you', and if you have the, for lack of a better word, balls, you might want to consider confronting us yourself instead of being such a whiny baby and pathetic loser in your emo empire. and for your information, just in case you haven't noticed, your so-called 'community' which you 'build with hard work and perseverance' has already crumbled, with people who deserve a hundred times more greater respect than you, doing their best to keep it going. and by far you are the worst leader i've ever seen, worse than that despicable authoritarian monkey i had to endure 5 years back. and you certainly redefined the standards of 'loser', 'pathetic' and 'jerk' altogether. i hope, despite, pardon me for my bluntness, your basic education, you might have enough intelligence to know that coming back with a less prominent figure will not turn tables around. perhaps i was abiding by the book, perhaps it was for everyone's benefit that i did some 'face-saving' for you back when you think you are so high and mighty that the whole world revolves around you. but times, have certainly changed, and i now regret all those that i have did to help in a way or another to save your face, but two things are sure. i'm not going to save face for you anymore, if you lose it because i simply tore it off then that's too bad. and that even using 'loser' to label you is an insult to those who are already in that category.
to this person who has just became the centre of our usual gossip at school:
yes you. don't have to look else where, a more pompous, arrogant, act-cool loser would be harder to find. i can only say that it is with great regret and with terrible luck that we, happen to share the same room and time slot as you do. and before you get high and mighty, think the reverse. because times can change, and tables can turn, and the wheels on the bus go round and round. someday, you might find yourself in a situation less than satisfactory than you would have hoped, imagined, or even wanted. but as the proverb goes, 'what goes up, must come down'. you are just 'touched by an angel', and some day that effect is going to wear off. and when that day comes, the one sitting and laughing wouldn't be you anymore.
to this person who is by far the biggest loser i have had the misfortune of turning my nose to:
get a life. because as hard as you try, i think you'll probably be better off living in the 80's where labor might still be the 'latest trend' around in society. i'm sure i'm one of those 'friends who are against you', and if you have the, for lack of a better word, balls, you might want to consider confronting us yourself instead of being such a whiny baby and pathetic loser in your emo empire. and for your information, just in case you haven't noticed, your so-called 'community' which you 'build with hard work and perseverance' has already crumbled, with people who deserve a hundred times more greater respect than you, doing their best to keep it going. and by far you are the worst leader i've ever seen, worse than that despicable authoritarian monkey i had to endure 5 years back. and you certainly redefined the standards of 'loser', 'pathetic' and 'jerk' altogether. i hope, despite, pardon me for my bluntness, your basic education, you might have enough intelligence to know that coming back with a less prominent figure will not turn tables around. perhaps i was abiding by the book, perhaps it was for everyone's benefit that i did some 'face-saving' for you back when you think you are so high and mighty that the whole world revolves around you. but times, have certainly changed, and i now regret all those that i have did to help in a way or another to save your face, but two things are sure. i'm not going to save face for you anymore, if you lose it because i simply tore it off then that's too bad. and that even using 'loser' to label you is an insult to those who are already in that category.
.~*^Twilight Ring^*~.: