Saturday, December 20, 2008
frankly i really hate it when my mum bosses me around like a 5 year old kid who still don't know what's with the whole world. seriously, 20 years already, and i'm living a different kind of life, walking a different kind of path from her and she just can't seem to understand the meaning of 'difference' in this world.
really, we're not in a robotic world where there's only one way of doing things. and please note that because in this situation i did this it's wrong. i'm sure in another situation which i go according to your way, there'll still be something wrong with it.
women in this world are changing, and i'm going for that change. i'm not going for the traditional way anymore. try to stop me if you want.
and im trying to help in this bleak hour when you are treating my dad like he's already signed the contract with the devil. im doing the best i can to make my dad happy, and you are not appreciating, you are not participating, and best of all, you are telling me NOT to do these things. already the family is so small, and you are making things difficult for everyone.
and i thought i was already the worst devil's advocate in the world.
so you think that just because you are my mother and you are the most perfect being in this world? that you never make mistakes?
thing is, you make mistakes, people tell you, and you refuse to listen, and go into a huge roll about i'm not supposed to talk back and all that rubbish. sometimes, i wonder if you mean it when you keep telling me i'm part of the family and have a responsiblity in it.
Monday, December 8, 2008
being in the state of confusion is never the best feeling that happened to me or i guess everyone.
seriously, is there so much things to be confused about? i feel kinda stupid every time after i cry when i realise hey it wasn't supposed to be like this or that bad.
why am i so stupid?
why am i so easily affected?
why am i so emotional?
why do i think so much?
why am i so gullible?
why am i asking so many whys?
go to hell.
Saturday, December 6, 2008
congrads to all my uni buddies for making it through the tormenting exams!!!
monday: com theory
i have absolutely NO memory of what was tested that made me want to tear the paper. oh, except some weirdo question about marxism and some... whatever.
verdict: died on this paper
wedesday: buisness com
erm... it's 10 percent of the whole module so many people decided to pass this one. so, i studied it at about 10pm the previous night? paper, suddenly there were some hard questions. might be self-fufilling prophesy since honolulu said 'study for it, it's going to be harder than midterms'. and lost concentration at the 3rd page, due to fatigue mentally and physically.
verdict: don't think it's going to be that bad since it's 10% and the marks we got for company research after redoing it was decent.
(brought Glacier to school so i can study with it at ngee ann with angie, but it became a distraction since i kept poking it.)
thrusday: sociology 101
everyone came out of the paper, some haven't even made it out of the exam hall, said 'wa the paper is f-ing hard!', when the lecturer was still there... -.0 yes, the paper is KILLER, for both class A and B. and i wonder how can some people walk out after 1 hr... in fact everyone, although we had two different teachers were cursing and swearing outside the hall after the paper. my 9 marks flew out the window. because there was SIMPLY TOO MANY THINGS TO STUDY!!!! omg how to memorise everything!??! conflict theory, functionalist and symbolic. what the hell!!! and i realise majority of my friends chose question 1 and 3. i chose 1 and 2. (throw table). but question 3 was the topic i didn't study for, and it freaking hell asked me about army. hey, i didn't go in army please!? and ya, i know army is a total institution! but i dunno what they do inside from sociology point of view please!??!?! mcq? forget it, how can i remember which DEAD sociologist coined which term, which HATED sociologist said what?! THEY ARE DEAD! their concepts may be valid but THEY ARE DEAD!!!!!
verdict: SUPER SCREWED ON THIS PAPER! GO TO HELL LA!
mourning for the 9 marks and the smaller portions of marks lost on the way in mcq.
friday was zoo trip and a very tiring captain's ball with uni girls. finally, my 'kor' and 'jie' -s and darling were moving and i can take decent pictures of them. super tired after the zoo trip, and went to play captain's ball. 3 v 3. super shag. slept until 3 pm in the afternoon, missed 1 call, 2 messages. and my dad was 'wow, you can still sleep above all the knockings and bangings in the kitchen'.
i'm like 'duh... who do you think i am?' ohohohoho and i gave him a salute. hahaha
then incidentally, i found alot of my band photos from last time. suddenly, i had the urge to play something. back to the old days...
then suddenly i want to watch kindaichi... suddenly this suddenly that. i believe, i'm incredible.
