Thursday, April 30, 2009
sitting in the depths of cliffs in nothing but a bathrobe and a snowboard although shielded by a cape of unlimited warmth waiting for a pathetically small amount of magic points to recover so as to save on pure water, otherwise known as pots... you know up till now i still haven't gotten the hang of calling magic potions or potions that recover whatever states as 'pots'. partially still because of the notion of using 'pot' to refer to someone in particular, something about 'pot calling the kettle black'... distant memories, but somehow it just stuck... but subconsciously i've been addressing those hundreds of bottles of whatever that resides in my inventory as 'pots' and unknowningly answered 'for buying pots' to questions of why am i still at a place of extraordinary slow leveling speed...
remind me why am i there... oh yes, hunting for toenails. can you imagine that? toenails from lycanthropes... i'm wondering why the hell do anyone want toenails, unless you are a witch or wizard of course... and lycanthropes are pathetically few... so the solution is to wait... i have no idea how i even had the crazy idea of visiting this place the previous time and happily waiting for one to summon more until the whole suspending bridge is impossible to pass...
apparently i'm all alone of course. so naturally the only source that links me to any sign of humanity is filled with megas which i until now have no idea why people would spend money to make the system lag. yet another unfanthomable mystery about people. but yes, and that's just the opening of lid of the pandora's box of humanity's most foulest traits.
then you start questioning why are there so many ungrateful brats out there. this is especially so if you have to wait until certain wolves and lycanthropes to be poisoned and have long periods of waiting time... of course, there's no answer to that. people can do whatever they want during times of peace and then when trouble comes they blame everyone else but themselves. yet another unfanthomable mystery about humanity, and kids.
and of course thinking and thinking and thinking, one thought will lead to another, and i come to think of many things that happened before, and i realise i've done alot of weird things in the past, despite the possession of a brain which it's sole purpose is to think. and the more i think about it, the more i want to find a mountain and just bury myself there for the rest of my life.
well, i guess my magic points have recovered. and perhaps should just resume my hunting of useless toenails...
.~*^Twilight Ring^*~.:
Friday, April 24, 2009
thank you for ruining my mood
i bloody hell don't appreciate mockery or half-hearted, unintended or done-for-the-sake-of-doing words.
and seriously if you don't want to help, forget it. if it's just me you have a problem with, then fine.
like i said, i'm the kind of person who, unless you step on my toes, i won't step back.
.~*^Twilight Ring^*~.:
wow 250th post, and a new blogskin to go with it. whahahaha! well, now, i'm a ninja, a shinigami, and a new occupation, an exorcist!! whooo hoo!!! well, i'll bet soon i'll become a mafia boss or hitman? whahahaha!!!!!
well, time to get out the broom and clear up all sorts of nonsensical stuff in my room and repair the seals on the windows. decluttering starts now, new wardrobe revamping, exercise to get rid of those excess fat, and get back in touch with all those that i lost.
like kuroshitsuji's ending song suggests, 'i'm alive' whahaha! and that's what i am.
someone in speech class says he's a reader, writer and dreamer.
i'm a ninja, shinigami and exorcist. (whahahaha)
but well, in reality, i'm a sleeper, slacker, and troublemaker!! whahahaha!
human hit factory is ready to roll!
.~*^Twilight Ring^*~.:
Thursday, April 23, 2009
if ever i have power (regardless of what kind), i'll:
-make exams disappear for good from this world
-obliterate those who make me paranoid about seeing some things as simple as a uniform
-squish those irritating annoying 'houseflies'
-make the carrying of samurai swords legal
-learn how to weild a sword
-send those hypocrites of the world on a one way trip to hell
-send those ungrateful people to eternal punishment of mental torture
-become the monopoly of anime/manga
*the above entry was typed in response to the pre-exam nonsense that were going through in my head as i mugged for an unfair and unreasonable and without-mercy exam.
.~*^Twilight Ring^*~.:
Sunday, April 19, 2009
finally, after today, in fact, after now, i can safely smile and say '
i'm back'.
D Gray-man.
haha...
other than that, i found what i lost. though it wasn't the same, but at least this is a good beginning.
just as Allen promised, 'no matter what happens,
i'll keep walking.'
after
naruto's 'never give up' back in the O
lvl days, after a huge gap of at least 4 years,
i'm can safely say, '
i'll keep walking'.
ただいま、らいんー参 此処からも通好きましょ？:)
oh ya, new name to go with it.
Exorcist: Twilight Ring
Innocence:
Crescent Blade
此処からもよろしくね？いしょにがんばって！
.~*^Twilight Ring^*~.:
Wednesday, April 15, 2009
to: everyone, with love
being sick for 3 days isn't a nice feeling at all, but there was a remedy waiting in school. i went back to support my buddies who are making their final speeches of this semester, and was quite surprised that i missed a few people, dang.
commemorative speech, a speech that is written and delivered to honor a special reverence that impacted each of us in anyway possible.
i chose to do on Lord of the Rings, as delivered last thursday, i chose that, not because of how handsome legolas looks, but rather the timely re-appearance of these movies despite not being able to appreciate it the last time i encountered them, as opposed to Harry Potter. i remembered shunning away the comments i read online about the comparison of HP and LOTR, but it was at that timely return that made me see light, and differentiate a true classic from another.
in the darkest days, i remembered hatred, disappointment, hurt, and all possible negatives. i craved for a direction out of the darkness, a source of light. i know where my remedy is, but it was too heavy to consume at that time. and now i know, that it was more than mere chance, that brought LOTR back into my life, as Gandalf said 'the rolling of small stones that starts an avalanche'. i saw more important things, i was reminded of who i was last time. and it was then, the phrase 'you'll learn to treasure after you lost it', was understood completely.
as opposed to such a crazy idea of commemorating a trilogy of movies, my classmates chose to commemorate important people in their lives, historic figures, inspirational mentors who made an impact on their lives. some of the commemorated still lives, some have passed on.
as each individual began to deliver their speeches, be it their mothers, grandmothers, grandfathers, siblings, best friends, friends who were gone, historical figures, my vision was blurred. some of the speakers, too, shed tears, of whichever emotion that they felt at that point of time. that, is something no words can describe, unless you felt it yourself.
and i start to wonder, is it just me? or am i really missing out on alot of things in life? or is my life just as no-life as can be? or that these people are just more fortunate than i am?
persuasive, informative, introductory speeches were not as revealing, as the commemorative speech. i saw a different side, perhaps an unmasked side of many, what truely touches their hearts, and what they have became. i saw people crying when delivering speeches, when i know they are much stronger in character than i am, i saw people tearing, when i know they are much more brave than i am.
but each speech, as i have come to realise, tells two stories. one about the commemorated, the other about the speaker. and each story, has their own motto and message to deliver.
and through their speeches, i've learnt not to give up,
be more appreciative of even the most bitter encounters in life,
joy can come in the smallest and simplest form
not to let self-emotions and commitments affect others who are not involved,
after learning how to love oneself don't forget to love others,
look deeper into each small aspect of life whether living or non-living and learn
just because you are in a bad shape doesn't mean you shouldn't help others
i thank everyone for their inspiring speeches, appreciate the suppression of emotions to deliver the speech, and admire their courage to share such deep impact.
.~*^Twilight Ring^*~.:
Sunday, April 12, 2009
i think i have really unrealistic expectations about everything in life outside my own bubble. i think it's all those movies and anime and books and whatever there are to blame, in short, media.
which probably explains why sometimes i'm easily irritated, disappointed, depressed, and (like what janice says)，就不知道自己在生气什么.
i think i should just leave those expectations to myself and apply them to me, and my imagination. then perhaps i can live happier.
.~*^Twilight Ring^*~.:
Friday, April 10, 2009
alrighty, commemorative speech is over. and so is a whole bunch of stuff.
1. no more school except tuesday honolulu's class to go support by buddies for their final speech of the semester
2. hope on that day honolulu scrape the final exams, because if that's the case i'm done with bloody 2 modules, her's and sng bee bee's
3. sng bee bee, not bad, at least she didn't have a final exam... and i'm glad to say that although the contrary happened to bob's paper, i must say her research paper went well, despite the terrible emphasis on the wrong things.
4. i hope, this time bob's exam is going to be alright, because i seriously need a relatively good score to even scrape through the module.
5. abel choy's exam i'm sure it's not going to be with mercy.
all of these pales to utter SIGNIFICANCE that i seriously need a place to study. i'm thinking of the airport. but... is there anywhere else that has a fairly cool aircon that does not freeze people to death, nice tables and chairs, quiet with no annoying people babbling away, safety issues concerning private property, food and drinks, plug points in case i have laptop, and perhaps accomodate my presence for long hours.... ?
it's pretty hard to come up with such a place, because home is definately NOT going to work... so is school....
have i mentioned how much i hate my own handwriting? this is the LAST time i'm taking notes if notes aren't given during class, i'm bringing my laptop everytime if need be. bloody notes... thanks to you again, bobby armstrong...
.~*^Twilight Ring^*~.:
there's an urge to double post, because the entry in chinese is darn long to type.
thanks for the tags!!!! hahahaha!!!! JYJY!!!!!
after surfing a number of blogs, i realise, i should probably write this too.
study week - hopefully honolulu scrape the finals. (whee hee!) then i'll be able to stretch out my time to study, and blow the two exams away, especially bobby armstrong's module. i'm absolutely not happy with what happened.
'well, this is supposed to be presentation, but go ahead'
i'll remember those words you said at the brink of my first sentence.
'then what's the point of making powerpoint slides when you're not going to use them'
to whoever said that in the audience, i'm sure you are someone who cooks dinner for the sake of staring at it.
abel choy's exam... gonna be killer, cos it's A' lvl exam style. sheesh... need to reorganize my notes.
screw exams.
but after exams, it's gonna be
catch up on MOVIES
read BOOKS
watch ANIME
spamming MANGA
PSP
GAMES
whooohooooo!!! can't wait for it to be over man. whahaha
.~*^Twilight Ring^*~.:
Thursday, April 9, 2009
很久没看漫画了，那天刚好有哪么的一点时间，打开书橱，眼望一叠一叠的漫画，就随手抽了一本。
‘爱美教主’
翻开一页，发现女主角个性很像我。为了遮住脸上的遐思，开始化妆。结局当然是完美的，但不知为什么，这次我一点都不觉得心动，感动，反而却是稍微的一点心痛，然后一点感觉都没有。 想必这就是我多日以来渴望的‘回到以前’。
之后想了想，不久以前一直抱怨‘雷瀛死到哪里去了，快回来救我’，一直否认雷瀛是个达不到的目标。今天我想收回我所说的话，应为我发现其实她就一直守在我身旁，甚至就是我的心灵。
前些日子过得不是很好，但不知为什么我却没掉泪，也没让生活的烦恼干扰我学校校务。我还是每天一大清早起床上学，写两份研究报告，做演讲。不知为什么头脑反而很清醒，全神灌注于学业。
之到一天我真的累垮了，老爸还幸灾乐祸的笑我。我自己想，能撑到今天已经算很不错了。即使是在期日逼近的那两三天，我还是毅然报者乐观的态度完成我所要完成的事。虽然中间一直抱怨某些人对校务的贡献，但也因为如此我得下更多的苦工。
那晚躺在床上等着睡觉，我突然发现，其实雷瀛根本都没离开过。之所以我能撑到现在是因为她接纳了掌管我的生活。因为我记得，雷瀛是不会轻易因挫折而掉泪的人。
今天演讲班的一组人的题目是‘单身’。发现他们所说的全是以前我所想过的，至少是雷瀛所想的。听了他们的演讲后，之前所有的迷惑全消失了。很高兴能在自己演讲前听到那么让人感慨的话题。
回到家，重看‘魔戒’，让我掉泪的片断再次重现，但我知道，那是雷瀛的眼泪。我最清楚她的为人，她不会轻易因挫折掉泪，只因感动而掉泪。
很庆幸有雷瀛在暗中默默的帮助，有必要时挺身代替我过日子。
.~*^Twilight Ring^*~.:
Wednesday, April 8, 2009
Whoo hoo!!!!
1. com300 presentation - DONE!
2. com300 report - DONE!
3. com 242 report - DONE!
4. com 242 presentation - DONE!
5. com 125 blog - DONE!
all of the above, thanks to you lecturers, gave me the worst hell of my life in UB. and especially to com 242... i completely am severely depressed by it now.
things to do
1. com 326 commemorative speech
and then i'm free, to study for exams.... -.- (like hell i'll be happy)
and i'm going to skip classes from now on. no point going to presentations whom people i find disgust in and didn't sit through mine.
for my buddies out there, jyjy for the speeches and presentations!!! i'll be there as audience and applause for you guys!!!! thanks for sitting through mine!!!
and to some people who probably don't read this, well, too bad, don't expect to see me on your presentation day, and even i'm there, i'll probably be playing psp or something else.
and to *ehem*, and *ehem*. i'm sorry this is very karmic, but all i can do is laugh.
.~*^Twilight Ring^*~.:
Sunday, April 5, 2009
i had a freaky dream last night... or rather this morning... i'm quite bewildered that i actually had such a dream, and this time i could see concrete features, although i don't quite remember now.
and for some funny reason is that, before i went to sleep, i was trying to use loa. and if that's what loa got me, then i think i ought to change my methods, or a more simpler way, give up and just face the facts.
in fact, i'm still shaking from that dream now, too bewildered to even do my work.
my mind is turning crazy, my body is failing me. external effects, please just, spare me these few weeks, after that you can haunt me anytime you want, but just let me pass these weeks in peace.
and to this incident that happened to me a few weeks ago, i bid thee goodbye, because i may be trapped in a vicious cycle, but everytime i strayed into such thoughts, i will be stopped, by whoever dominates my wallpaper now. and i realise, yes, i'm dead, in a literal sense. because i can no longer feel anything anymore.
.~*^Twilight Ring^*~.:
Friday, April 3, 2009
my days are literately numbered.
things to do within this pathetically short time:
1. com300 research paper
2. com300 ppt slides
3. com300 script
4. com242 research paper
5. com242 ppt slides
6. com242 script
7. com326 outline
to be completed within this weekend. bless me...
よかたなら、私にじゃまするんな。
.~*^Twilight Ring^*~.:
Wednesday, April 1, 2009
i only got to know this recently, after all it did happen recently... but... no matter how many times i think about it, i find it quite weird. as in, a little deja vu, yet different from the previous somehow. at the same time, the math didn't really work again, like i said, deja vu.
ok forget it, it seems really like deja vu.
but i still found it weird. then again, the last time i didn't get to answer queries, so i probably shouldn't trouble my already-troubled mind with things that don't concern me.
after all, technically speaking, i don't know them. well i guess i should just get myself immune to such stuff, because like they always say 'things that happen once will never happen for a second time, but things that happened twice will definately happen for a third time'.
well maybe i'm thinking too much, because the 2nd time actually hasn't really occured, yet? well, but signs are just too similar to ignore, and being overly inquisitive, i can't help but ask the same questions again.
ok, like i said, i shouldn't trouble myself because it doesn't concern me and that i don't know them.
but let's say if this is the 2nd time, makes me wonder who will the 3rd time fall on...?
hmm...
it's puzzling, weird, funny, at the same time, rather uncomprehendable and makes me shake my head at it.
well, 3rd time going, i shouldn't trouble myself with things that don't concern me and with people whom i don't know.
.~*^Twilight Ring^*~.:
