Saturday, October 27, 2007
i wonder sometimes why is it that people's words have a incredible way of affecting me. i guess this is what people say 'take things to heart'. and that's why people say i'm too sensitive. which makes me petty and selfish and self-centered.
is it just me or does others feel the same way about these things?
i wonder sometimes why is it that people's words have a incredible way of affecting me. i guess this is what people say 'take things to heart'. and that's why people say i'm too sensitive. which makes me petty and selfish and self-centered.
is it just me or does others feel the same way about these things?
.~*^Twilight Ring^*~.:
Friday, October 26, 2007
well, today isn't exactly the nicest day i've had, but it had it's moments.. (evil laugh) and this is going to be a long entry.... hisashiburi dane.....
first of all, i turned in early last night because i had a severe headache yesterday. and apparently i woke up at 1.30 in the morning... after 1 and half hours of sleep... and my mind was programmed to go bathe and get ready for school... it was then it hit me, IN THE MIDDLE OF THE NIGHT that i forgot to put one of my most important assignments to be submitted today in my bag..... talk about sleep walking and stress.... but at least it saved me. whahaha.
anyway, i came to school, wearing that fluffy jacket and to Akuma-sensei's class, and Splikik said she had something to tell me. so in the end i found out that Mr. Nasty Comments took a toll on a history issue that happened on tuesday. which i think he's obviously at fault and trying to rectify the issue because he had done it once, only to fan fire...
firstly... apparently he didn't know how the girl's mind work. Cherry didn't want to fight with Samie that's why she said 'nevermind forget it' or whatever it is. and obviously he didn't see Yan Jie's expression when HE was the one who cut off he power when she was loading excel installation... which is why he started to fan fire and make Cherry irritated to the point where she told him off.
secondly... i think what people say about the internet VS real world is damn true, and only up to the point where they gain confidence through net and stop there. because i find that people, (perfect example here) can say a whole lot of stuff over the net and when it comes to real life.... they crap. 'should i take down that entry' and 'so i should practice self censorship' are two sentences which are considered taboo at that situation. well, actually i did feel like telling him off at that moment, and back Cherry up, but well, it's not my issue and i've got a friend who is totally not involved in this present at that moment. and then again, there's the whole issue of contradiction, because, apparently, like i've said million times over, people learn things in class and don't use them on daily life, and whats more, Mr. Nasty Comments is a toastmaster, shouldn't public speaking or rather REAL LIFE conversations be a flick of the wand's effort?? talk about CONTRADICTION whahahaha!!!! (laughing and pointing emoti)
anyway, i don't think i've 'violated' any rights or rules or ethics here since, Cherry did say that people can say whatever they want on their blog, but they shouldn't put down the names, and i do have the right to say what i've said because seriously, what he put on his blog about Cherry is almost identical to what he opened fire at me last time. and difference is that i didn't go confront him about what he said in front of everyone and face to face. sue me.
ok, enough about nasty comments and whatever. let's move on.
during history class. well, i must say that maybe Ms. Angel is really irritated with all of us, and i blame it on the retarded guy who shouted in lecture on my hate list. well, it kinds of fit in because in my opinion, Ms. Angel has started retaliating our noise level and behaviour... and because she as a lecturer couldn't control the lecture, and it had to take a BRUTE to get people to shut up and it actually looks rather embarrassing and insulting to Ms. Angel.
but anyway, the discussion went really bad. i mean, i didn't prepare for the topic, since i have no idea what to say anyway. and when i heard a particular someone's name being called to be speaker, i told myself i might as well sacrifice my participation points for this round and everything turned out as how i predicted it, and true enough, a bomb was released... at first i didn't want to say anything and was mentally prepared to sacrifice the points, but when the topic started swaying, i found things to say and managed to scrape some marks. by the way thanks Samie for evaluating me.
well despite all, i felt really bad rebutting that poor guy who tried to get the ball rolling and tried to bring up some points, but i guess i'm not entirely at fault because he didn't really support his point well and there was visible loopholes which anyone can pick on. so, sorry to that guy. and also sorry to Yanyi...
anyway, the test didn't go well, since i didn't really study for it... thanks to the hectic week and all that crap.
and after that, during CSE, apparently all from Akuma-sensei's class, and everyone was 'bitching' about her. can't expect too much anyway, since what she does is rather out of the norm...
eitherway i came home and here i am blogging, despite the whole crappy week, something made my tears flowed just moments ago. and Zephyris, you know very well what i'm talking about.
last week, i think friday or something, or saturday can't remember, Shinji became No.1 on my hate list, and for a fleeting moment he was the highest on that list (despite me saying that the hate list wasn't in any order)... because he did something which if he was right in front of me at that time i would really, literately, swear on pain of death, hit/slash/kick/punch/bite/claw/strangle him. ok, be fair, i'm sure anyone who saw that would do the same.
and the whole week was so irritating because i don't know what happened after that, thanks to everything... and i keep thinking about what's Chimy's reaction. ok, i know he is damn freaking sad about it (0k, screw it, he was going to cry at that point), after all he put in so much effort and freaking B****** made him work like a freaking slave. i mean look at his reaction when he took out Buubaa, i think is damn cute, it's like after so long with that freaking B, he finally had some fun out of it. and what happened next???? seriously i really want to just jump into the rink and slap Shinji at that point of time. and why the freaking hell did Cynthia let him off that time? i think she can seriously step down and give that position to someone better. never in their history have i hated someone right down to core. i really have no idea how the rest can stand him, if it were me i would have ran away or set fire to his tent and burn him with it. i'm serious... when people are drove to the extremes, murder comes naturally... at least that's what i saw... and now i understand the logic behind movies and stories about abandoned puppets coming to life and seeking revenge... i sympathise with them.... cross my heart.
but well, after all the crap i had this week, i finally saw Chimy's reaction. and yes, i know i SHOULD have predicted that little fiasco before Chimy accepted that offer, since it's always pretty much that way... (sweat), cameo appearances but seriously not needed. but yes, he did accept the offer. and frankly, i think he would be better off with the others since they are the ones who are humane, and not like that freaking B Shinji who is abusing... and seriously, pardon my use of vulgarities...
Shinji (i don't think you even deserve to be called by your name), you don't F****** deserve that... and open your eyes to see that your efforts are pretty much redundant back there. and i know you'll continue to be your ways until someone really good beat the F****** crap out of you, literately.
but well, given chance i'll go beat the crap out of the freaking B, and congrads to Chimy for his new life with new and better friends. and i'm sure that's going to be heaven compared to the hell with that freaking B...
all right... extremely long entry, but couldn't help it. whahaa. oh yea, i forgot to say something. that day i broke my chair when i sat on it... whahahaha!!!! serious...
well, today isn't exactly the nicest day i've had, but it had it's moments.. (evil laugh) and this is going to be a long entry.... hisashiburi dane.....
first of all, i turned in early last night because i had a severe headache yesterday. and apparently i woke up at 1.30 in the morning... after 1 and half hours of sleep... and my mind was programmed to go bathe and get ready for school... it was then it hit me, IN THE MIDDLE OF THE NIGHT that i forgot to put one of my most important assignments to be submitted today in my bag..... talk about sleep walking and stress.... but at least it saved me. whahaha.
anyway, i came to school, wearing that fluffy jacket and to Akuma-sensei's class, and Splikik said she had something to tell me. so in the end i found out that Mr. Nasty Comments took a toll on a history issue that happened on tuesday. which i think he's obviously at fault and trying to rectify the issue because he had done it once, only to fan fire...
firstly... apparently he didn't know how the girl's mind work. Cherry didn't want to fight with Samie that's why she said 'nevermind forget it' or whatever it is. and obviously he didn't see Yan Jie's expression when HE was the one who cut off he power when she was loading excel installation... which is why he started to fan fire and make Cherry irritated to the point where she told him off.
secondly... i think what people say about the internet VS real world is damn true, and only up to the point where they gain confidence through net and stop there. because i find that people, (perfect example here) can say a whole lot of stuff over the net and when it comes to real life.... they crap. 'should i take down that entry' and 'so i should practice self censorship' are two sentences which are considered taboo at that situation. well, actually i did feel like telling him off at that moment, and back Cherry up, but well, it's not my issue and i've got a friend who is totally not involved in this present at that moment. and then again, there's the whole issue of contradiction, because, apparently, like i've said million times over, people learn things in class and don't use them on daily life, and whats more, Mr. Nasty Comments is a toastmaster, shouldn't public speaking or rather REAL LIFE conversations be a flick of the wand's effort?? talk about CONTRADICTION whahahaha!!!! (laughing and pointing emoti)
anyway, i don't think i've 'violated' any rights or rules or ethics here since, Cherry did say that people can say whatever they want on their blog, but they shouldn't put down the names, and i do have the right to say what i've said because seriously, what he put on his blog about Cherry is almost identical to what he opened fire at me last time. and difference is that i didn't go confront him about what he said in front of everyone and face to face. sue me.
ok, enough about nasty comments and whatever. let's move on.
during history class. well, i must say that maybe Ms. Angel is really irritated with all of us, and i blame it on the retarded guy who shouted in lecture on my hate list. well, it kinds of fit in because in my opinion, Ms. Angel has started retaliating our noise level and behaviour... and because she as a lecturer couldn't control the lecture, and it had to take a BRUTE to get people to shut up and it actually looks rather embarrassing and insulting to Ms. Angel.
but anyway, the discussion went really bad. i mean, i didn't prepare for the topic, since i have no idea what to say anyway. and when i heard a particular someone's name being called to be speaker, i told myself i might as well sacrifice my participation points for this round and everything turned out as how i predicted it, and true enough, a bomb was released... at first i didn't want to say anything and was mentally prepared to sacrifice the points, but when the topic started swaying, i found things to say and managed to scrape some marks. by the way thanks Samie for evaluating me.
well despite all, i felt really bad rebutting that poor guy who tried to get the ball rolling and tried to bring up some points, but i guess i'm not entirely at fault because he didn't really support his point well and there was visible loopholes which anyone can pick on. so, sorry to that guy. and also sorry to Yanyi...
anyway, the test didn't go well, since i didn't really study for it... thanks to the hectic week and all that crap.
and after that, during CSE, apparently all from Akuma-sensei's class, and everyone was 'bitching' about her. can't expect too much anyway, since what she does is rather out of the norm...
eitherway i came home and here i am blogging, despite the whole crappy week, something made my tears flowed just moments ago. and Zephyris, you know very well what i'm talking about.
last week, i think friday or something, or saturday can't remember, Shinji became No.1 on my hate list, and for a fleeting moment he was the highest on that list (despite me saying that the hate list wasn't in any order)... because he did something which if he was right in front of me at that time i would really, literately, swear on pain of death, hit/slash/kick/punch/bite/claw/strangle him. ok, be fair, i'm sure anyone who saw that would do the same.
and the whole week was so irritating because i don't know what happened after that, thanks to everything... and i keep thinking about what's Chimy's reaction. ok, i know he is damn freaking sad about it (0k, screw it, he was going to cry at that point), after all he put in so much effort and freaking B****** made him work like a freaking slave. i mean look at his reaction when he took out Buubaa, i think is damn cute, it's like after so long with that freaking B, he finally had some fun out of it. and what happened next???? seriously i really want to just jump into the rink and slap Shinji at that point of time. and why the freaking hell did Cynthia let him off that time? i think she can seriously step down and give that position to someone better. never in their history have i hated someone right down to core. i really have no idea how the rest can stand him, if it were me i would have ran away or set fire to his tent and burn him with it. i'm serious... when people are drove to the extremes, murder comes naturally... at least that's what i saw... and now i understand the logic behind movies and stories about abandoned puppets coming to life and seeking revenge... i sympathise with them.... cross my heart.
but well, after all the crap i had this week, i finally saw Chimy's reaction. and yes, i know i SHOULD have predicted that little fiasco before Chimy accepted that offer, since it's always pretty much that way... (sweat), cameo appearances but seriously not needed. but yes, he did accept the offer. and frankly, i think he would be better off with the others since they are the ones who are humane, and not like that freaking B Shinji who is abusing... and seriously, pardon my use of vulgarities...
Shinji (i don't think you even deserve to be called by your name), you don't F****** deserve that... and open your eyes to see that your efforts are pretty much redundant back there. and i know you'll continue to be your ways until someone really good beat the F****** crap out of you, literately.
but well, given chance i'll go beat the crap out of the freaking B, and congrads to Chimy for his new life with new and better friends. and i'm sure that's going to be heaven compared to the hell with that freaking B...
all right... extremely long entry, but couldn't help it. whahaa. oh yea, i forgot to say something. that day i broke my chair when i sat on it... whahahaha!!!! serious...
.~*^Twilight Ring^*~.:
Wednesday, October 24, 2007
let me make a list of the people whom i hate so as to keep track of my life once in a while. because sometimes when i say that so and so is number 1 on my 'dxr' list, i tend to have a deja vu...
so today's date is 24 October 2007, in no particular order.
1. english no akuma-sensei
2. donkusai no iebae
3. hentai no tsubo
4. Shinji! (not the one in Bleach)
5. Ulquoirra
6. inoue orihime
7. pein
8. Uchiha Sasuke (Shippuden)
9. Haruno Sakura
10. that hermaphrodite Arrancar whose name i can't be bothered to know
11. the one who shouted in UGC lecture
12. Hinamori Momo
i'll add back to the list when i can remember, but as far as i know, if the names doesn't come to me, chances are i don't really hate them....
let me make a list of the people whom i hate so as to keep track of my life once in a while. because sometimes when i say that so and so is number 1 on my 'dxr' list, i tend to have a deja vu...
so today's date is 24 October 2007, in no particular order.
1. english no akuma-sensei
2. donkusai no iebae
3. hentai no tsubo
4. Shinji! (not the one in Bleach)
5. Ulquoirra
6. inoue orihime
7. pein
8. Uchiha Sasuke (Shippuden)
9. Haruno Sakura
10. that hermaphrodite Arrancar whose name i can't be bothered to know
11. the one who shouted in UGC lecture
12. Hinamori Momo
i'll add back to the list when i can remember, but as far as i know, if the names doesn't come to me, chances are i don't really hate them....
.~*^Twilight Ring^*~.:
Monday, October 22, 2007
watching D-gray man these days, thanks to dear Zephyris who relieved me of the horrible downloading time.
was watching it for a while and coupled with this stupid movie on tv yesterday and i realised i'm back to the conclusion i always have whenever i watch anime. that is:
i hate those who are selfish, crybaby, time wasters, and those who refuse to work for what they want.
selfish. yes i hate those people. i know i'm rather selfish myself, since i'm pretty much a narcissist. but what i hate is those who refuse to get the gravity of the situation and continue to act for their small scale benefits. they are the stubborn idiots who after people tell them it can't be done and why is this so and what will happen they freaking won't listen and jeopardise the entire situation. i can understand those who get angry at that situation and start to get violent, but what i can't understand is those nice people who try to explain and explain when there's a monster behind them... which is why if i learn any martial arts, i'd probably be in jail now.
crybaby. maybe it's their nature to be less aggressive than the others and choose to retreat rather than attack. but sometimes i wonder how much blood they want to see their friends spill before they decide to stop the tears and do something, no matter how small and insignificant it may seem. frankly, i salute those who despite their inabilities, continue to fight for that little chance to turn the situation around, because they are probably the ones who will make a miracle. it is those who run away that i hate.
time wasters. quite sorry about that. i have a short attention span for everything, and if people start to think about what words they want to use to convey their messages, and they 'erm' for more than 2 seconds i lose the interest in what they want to say, no matter how important and impact-ful it is. serious. and i hate those who still waste time in pinches, who don't see the situation and trust people and act quickly. they are the ones who cause all the trouble and cry later.
those who refuse to work for what they want. well to me, if there's something i want, i weigh the consequences and the amount of work needed to get it. if it's worth it, i'll go, if it's not, i won't. and sometimes i'm lazy to go after it, because i know i can live without it. but if it's something i want, i will work for it. if i get it, good. if i don't, at least i know i tried my best and it's not mine. otherwise i won't rest my case. but i just don't like to see people sitting there, waiting for something to drop from the sky, or which way the wind blows them and stuff like that. and worse part is that they try to take what's not theirs. which often, well, their endings are not that nice.
despite the urge to punch the screen, or better still go in there and beat the crap out of those idiots, i felt nostalgic watching a new anime. and haha, i find myself putting Raiin into the setting, wearing a different set of Exorcist battle coat.
finally watched Simpsons the movie also. conclusion is pretty obvious i guess.
watching D-gray man these days, thanks to dear Zephyris who relieved me of the horrible downloading time.
was watching it for a while and coupled with this stupid movie on tv yesterday and i realised i'm back to the conclusion i always have whenever i watch anime. that is:
i hate those who are selfish, crybaby, time wasters, and those who refuse to work for what they want.
selfish. yes i hate those people. i know i'm rather selfish myself, since i'm pretty much a narcissist. but what i hate is those who refuse to get the gravity of the situation and continue to act for their small scale benefits. they are the stubborn idiots who after people tell them it can't be done and why is this so and what will happen they freaking won't listen and jeopardise the entire situation. i can understand those who get angry at that situation and start to get violent, but what i can't understand is those nice people who try to explain and explain when there's a monster behind them... which is why if i learn any martial arts, i'd probably be in jail now.
crybaby. maybe it's their nature to be less aggressive than the others and choose to retreat rather than attack. but sometimes i wonder how much blood they want to see their friends spill before they decide to stop the tears and do something, no matter how small and insignificant it may seem. frankly, i salute those who despite their inabilities, continue to fight for that little chance to turn the situation around, because they are probably the ones who will make a miracle. it is those who run away that i hate.
time wasters. quite sorry about that. i have a short attention span for everything, and if people start to think about what words they want to use to convey their messages, and they 'erm' for more than 2 seconds i lose the interest in what they want to say, no matter how important and impact-ful it is. serious. and i hate those who still waste time in pinches, who don't see the situation and trust people and act quickly. they are the ones who cause all the trouble and cry later.
those who refuse to work for what they want. well to me, if there's something i want, i weigh the consequences and the amount of work needed to get it. if it's worth it, i'll go, if it's not, i won't. and sometimes i'm lazy to go after it, because i know i can live without it. but if it's something i want, i will work for it. if i get it, good. if i don't, at least i know i tried my best and it's not mine. otherwise i won't rest my case. but i just don't like to see people sitting there, waiting for something to drop from the sky, or which way the wind blows them and stuff like that. and worse part is that they try to take what's not theirs. which often, well, their endings are not that nice.
despite the urge to punch the screen, or better still go in there and beat the crap out of those idiots, i felt nostalgic watching a new anime. and haha, i find myself putting Raiin into the setting, wearing a different set of Exorcist battle coat.
finally watched Simpsons the movie also. conclusion is pretty obvious i guess.
.~*^Twilight Ring^*~.:
Friday, October 19, 2007
surprisingly, i did something that i never would have done before in my life today.
Jan and i were taking a long journey to the washroom due to the nearest toilets being down. so in the end we stopped by the atrium on the 3rd floor corridor and began talking. and yeah, if you want to call it, we were 'guy-watching'.
ok, before you guys get the wrong idea, we were not looking at who are the handsome hunks or the 'cannot make it' ones in our school, but due to this little incident i've mentioned earlier that guys carry umbrella, and a comment Diana made about guys bringing tissue.
call us biased and stereotypical, but we were discussing which are the guys who would bring umbrellas and who's not. particularly pointing out this guy who was skinny like a bamboo stick and dresses like a japanese hip hop shounen.
well, and that brought me to tell Jan about my thoughts about the line separating good friends and b/g friends. not going to elaborate on that, since i'm rather sick and tired of finding out the answer to the burning question i have.
anyway. Zephyris is again bugged by this gigantic fly who needs a gigantic electronic fly swatter to annihilate. hmm.... maybe i should go for a module that teaches how to swat flies effectively... yep. and get a master degree in fly swatting. peace
not in the mood to blog, so shall end it here.
surprisingly, i did something that i never would have done before in my life today.
Jan and i were taking a long journey to the washroom due to the nearest toilets being down. so in the end we stopped by the atrium on the 3rd floor corridor and began talking. and yeah, if you want to call it, we were 'guy-watching'.
ok, before you guys get the wrong idea, we were not looking at who are the handsome hunks or the 'cannot make it' ones in our school, but due to this little incident i've mentioned earlier that guys carry umbrella, and a comment Diana made about guys bringing tissue.
call us biased and stereotypical, but we were discussing which are the guys who would bring umbrellas and who's not. particularly pointing out this guy who was skinny like a bamboo stick and dresses like a japanese hip hop shounen.
well, and that brought me to tell Jan about my thoughts about the line separating good friends and b/g friends. not going to elaborate on that, since i'm rather sick and tired of finding out the answer to the burning question i have.
anyway. Zephyris is again bugged by this gigantic fly who needs a gigantic electronic fly swatter to annihilate. hmm.... maybe i should go for a module that teaches how to swat flies effectively... yep. and get a master degree in fly swatting. peace
not in the mood to blog, so shall end it here.
.~*^Twilight Ring^*~.:
Thursday, October 18, 2007
quick one before i go kill myself with the esl essay.
yes, despite i say i want to go 'kong bia' for the quiz, i now feel like i want to do the same for the midterms comns. the teacher actually said something about the a section where people can get 0 marks. and whahaha! (laughing & pointing emoti) i was one of them. well, not exactly the reason why i wanted to 'kong bia', in fact i was laughing about that one. 'i got zero i got zero!' strange, the essay turned out fine... despite the fact that i was starting to write that 10 mins to the end of the exam, and my hand was aching like i've just came out of an econs exam. i though i threw that 20 marks out the windows just like that, because in the past, the quantity of the essay will determine the quantity of marks you get. and the fact that my pals around me wrote essays and not a paragraph... like me...
cse exam was.... again, rather weird. because the teacher said he marked us according to the way we think and not the actual answer. which accounts to why my eyes nearly fell off when i saw my marks online. well i don't think anybody knew about the marks being posted on sunday... because it was a coincidence that i clicked that button... well that explains a lot, because i remembered leaving a 10 marks question blank!! and how can it be that i lost only 2 marks for the rest of the paper.... well. i have no idea how this school works now, since the previous quizzes and all were MCQ.
and i heard that UGC there are people who got full marks for essay...
am i on Mars or Jupiter? or perhaps Pluto? no idea... let's wait and see tomorrow...
anyway, just now i was coming home, i decided to take mrt instead of bus and when i reached my station, there was this weird but familiar smell. i'm there 'oh great... rain.' so there's 2 problems. 1, i'm bringing laptop. 2, i got no umbrella. well. not such a big deal because i have a jacket with a hood. so no worries. then when i reached the top, i was busy stuffing my laptop into that miserable bag i was carrying and pulling out my jacket, there was this guy who, well.... has an umbrella.
ok, strange but not so bad. you can more or less tell what kind of a person from the way he or she dress so, yeah. this guy strikes me as the kind who would bring along an umbrella. so i was busy with my bag, and i saw him turning around and look at his surroundings. not to see how big the rain was, but well, i presume, to offer to shelter people... because there was this uncle who was standing there waiting for something and he ignored the chap, and i was the next one to still be stranded at the station.
well, to me, i don't like sharing umbrella with people. 1, no matter what, you will still get wet. and if two people are sharing, chances are they both will get wet. so no point. 2, i've never seen this person before so yeah, that's a stranger. 3, he's a guy. not that i have a prejudice against guys or what, but i would only share umbrella with my dad, and a 0% possibility boyfriend. call me old fashion and conservative, but i'd rather think of myself as independent and not a damsel in distress. just because i have a laptop instead of an umbrella doesn't mean that creativity in solving problems can't get me home. yeah i'm blowing up a small matter but that's just a conclusion. (peace emoti)
so i stood behind this guy, wearing my jacket, he turned around to look at me once again, waiting for me to look in his direction or to stand there with an expression like i'm totally helpless, i presume. so i pulled on the hood and strode out into the rain. that'll save him from asking me if i needed sheltering and the awkwardness that follows, that is if he was being nice and trying to help.
well, it's still glad to see that there are nice people around, despite all evidence to the contrary, especially the morning and evening mrt stations. like i said to Zephyris that day when she asked in frustration to a particularly frustrating issue with a frustrating guy 'why are guys like that??'.
i told her:
'the only ones who aren't like that are the rare and dying species called 'gentlemen'.'
quick one before i go kill myself with the esl essay.
yes, despite i say i want to go 'kong bia' for the quiz, i now feel like i want to do the same for the midterms comns. the teacher actually said something about the a section where people can get 0 marks. and whahaha! (laughing & pointing emoti) i was one of them. well, not exactly the reason why i wanted to 'kong bia', in fact i was laughing about that one. 'i got zero i got zero!' strange, the essay turned out fine... despite the fact that i was starting to write that 10 mins to the end of the exam, and my hand was aching like i've just came out of an econs exam. i though i threw that 20 marks out the windows just like that, because in the past, the quantity of the essay will determine the quantity of marks you get. and the fact that my pals around me wrote essays and not a paragraph... like me...
cse exam was.... again, rather weird. because the teacher said he marked us according to the way we think and not the actual answer. which accounts to why my eyes nearly fell off when i saw my marks online. well i don't think anybody knew about the marks being posted on sunday... because it was a coincidence that i clicked that button... well that explains a lot, because i remembered leaving a 10 marks question blank!! and how can it be that i lost only 2 marks for the rest of the paper.... well. i have no idea how this school works now, since the previous quizzes and all were MCQ.
and i heard that UGC there are people who got full marks for essay...
am i on Mars or Jupiter? or perhaps Pluto? no idea... let's wait and see tomorrow...
anyway, just now i was coming home, i decided to take mrt instead of bus and when i reached my station, there was this weird but familiar smell. i'm there 'oh great... rain.' so there's 2 problems. 1, i'm bringing laptop. 2, i got no umbrella. well. not such a big deal because i have a jacket with a hood. so no worries. then when i reached the top, i was busy stuffing my laptop into that miserable bag i was carrying and pulling out my jacket, there was this guy who, well.... has an umbrella.
ok, strange but not so bad. you can more or less tell what kind of a person from the way he or she dress so, yeah. this guy strikes me as the kind who would bring along an umbrella. so i was busy with my bag, and i saw him turning around and look at his surroundings. not to see how big the rain was, but well, i presume, to offer to shelter people... because there was this uncle who was standing there waiting for something and he ignored the chap, and i was the next one to still be stranded at the station.
well, to me, i don't like sharing umbrella with people. 1, no matter what, you will still get wet. and if two people are sharing, chances are they both will get wet. so no point. 2, i've never seen this person before so yeah, that's a stranger. 3, he's a guy. not that i have a prejudice against guys or what, but i would only share umbrella with my dad, and a 0% possibility boyfriend. call me old fashion and conservative, but i'd rather think of myself as independent and not a damsel in distress. just because i have a laptop instead of an umbrella doesn't mean that creativity in solving problems can't get me home. yeah i'm blowing up a small matter but that's just a conclusion. (peace emoti)
so i stood behind this guy, wearing my jacket, he turned around to look at me once again, waiting for me to look in his direction or to stand there with an expression like i'm totally helpless, i presume. so i pulled on the hood and strode out into the rain. that'll save him from asking me if i needed sheltering and the awkwardness that follows, that is if he was being nice and trying to help.
well, it's still glad to see that there are nice people around, despite all evidence to the contrary, especially the morning and evening mrt stations. like i said to Zephyris that day when she asked in frustration to a particularly frustrating issue with a frustrating guy 'why are guys like that??'.
i told her:
'the only ones who aren't like that are the rare and dying species called 'gentlemen'.'
.~*^Twilight Ring^*~.:
Tuesday, October 16, 2007
bwhahaha!
ok, surprisingly, nothing went right today...
first, coms test. i knew that answer was that Harry something one, but i refused to change the bloody hell answer. and see?! answer wrong! !@$$%^^&*%#@$%^*$@%$%@$
i feel like doing what yanyi said last time. go 'kong bia'.
hate it... then esl? Wonderful! my essay outline.... !@##$%^^&*(*&^%$#@!!!@#$%
happy now???? whoever that is who said that '***************************' ?
then ugc. hmm... remember that guy i was refering to who has ABSOLUTELY NO SENSE of fashion??? well, he shouted for the lecture hall people to shut up. who the hell does he thinks he is?! this is a bloody college and not a primary school! !@#$%^&*()(*&^%%#@!
and dunno why.... or maybe i'm too tired or something... my headphones didn't seem to work so nice today...
bwhahaha!
ok, surprisingly, nothing went right today...
first, coms test. i knew that answer was that Harry something one, but i refused to change the bloody hell answer. and see?! answer wrong! !@$$%^^&*%#@$%^*$@%$%@$
i feel like doing what yanyi said last time. go 'kong bia'.
hate it... then esl? Wonderful! my essay outline.... !@##$%^^&*(*&^%$#@!!!@#$%
happy now???? whoever that is who said that '***************************' ?
then ugc. hmm... remember that guy i was refering to who has ABSOLUTELY NO SENSE of fashion??? well, he shouted for the lecture hall people to shut up. who the hell does he thinks he is?! this is a bloody college and not a primary school! !@#$%^&*()(*&^%%#@!
and dunno why.... or maybe i'm too tired or something... my headphones didn't seem to work so nice today...
.~*^Twilight Ring^*~.:
Sunday, October 14, 2007
14 oct has arrived for the 19th time ever since that day my mum went through agony and pain to bring me into this world. according to mum, she said that every 19 years, the birth date on chinese calender coincides with the one on the normal calender.
not that it mattered to me in the past, i don't even know which date is my chinese calender birth date. but somehow, when i heard about the 19 years thing, i find that i do actually care... particularly this year... particularly when you want something....
i find myself 'courting death' again, throwing myself in the fire, suicide murder, whatever you want to call it. i'm sure my pals would be thinking i'm real stupid enough to do that. but well, during certain times, our instinct and intellect fight each other and leave you to do 'stupid' things. and it happened several minutes ago, which, i must say i'm disappointed and not disappointed at the same time. real stupid i know...
sometimes i wonder how the human brain works. and how people see things. for me, if i were in that situation but different side, i would be thinking about the 'why's. but somehow it doesn't seem that way, and i doubt it's going to head in that direction anyway. can't say that i'm disappointed, because i don't know how to deal with it if it were in heading the other direction. i find that i like to run away. but sometimes, we know that running away is the right thing to do.
'you can run fast, but problem run faster'. quoted from Norbit. i'm sure that's true, we all know that. and i have first hand experience. (laughs) how silly... but i've decided not to run away this time. i decided to confront it, and by doing so, taking the risk of 20% vs 80% of 'that' happening. i know it's an excuse, but it is logical to explain it this way. and from the situation, and like always, the 20% is winning. hopefully wins at the end. but then, it'll be just like last year's journal entry written down on paper. regrets and disappointments.
i wonder again, is it human nature that we always want people to help us in difficult times? i mean, yeah i was like that before (ouchy quote), always waiting for someone to save me. but after a while, i realise no one came to my rescue. i don't know why is that so, maybe the people around me hated me or something, i just find that, whenever i'm in trouble or something, people know, be it they know it themselves or i tell them, but the thing is, they know and that's it. there's no suggestions to help me, unlike when others are in a little pickle i offer suggestions and help. there's no offer to help, which is obvious. there's no concern for that either, no 'hey the last time you said blah blah blah, how was it?'
it was then i realise that i've got to stand on my own feet, do what's right and save myself. that's when i stopped getting into trouble that often. sure there were misses, but the same thing always surfaces, no help, no concern, no care. i'm rather used to that, seriously. perhaps that's why whenever i have to deal with something, my mind starts to think of possible solutions, not one, but a few, and question them until the plan is foolproof. i always tell myself to be selfish than what i am now. i see a problem, you don't care, problem gets out of hand, i'm safe, you're not, i sit and drink tea and watch you die.
but i can't seem to be able to do that. always at the last moment, i'll stamp on my own feet and help the person out. then the story branches out to different versions, where there are people who takes, alters and get into more trouble or, take and throw, or blah blah blah yada yada yada.
so why is it that people still take help for granted? i don't know, and don't think i'll find out soon anyway.
was watching spider man 3 just now and i come to the same conclusion i did in march's entry. i don't know why is it aways so that friends die in the process of helping someone else. and i wonder, why do the good guys always die? do they deserve to die? i don't think so. in fact i hate it when someone, other than the bad guy, dies.
not such a good way to start 14 oct, but then, at least i know Zephyris might dxr someone for me, and Qianz is spamming my Cbox with concert details whahahahaha!!!!
looking back at my life, i find that i did a lot of things. played piano, clarinet, flute, guitar. watched so many manga and anime, although the amount is incomparable to Zeph and Qianz now. met many people, of which there are those whom i hate and love. stepping across and back that red line, which now i've no idea which side i am standing now. have some great times and bad ones.
but i have one regret.
that is i always lack the courage to do what i want to, be it good or bad...
'... i've never shot a wild beast, i'm not even brave enough to tell that beautiful woman i loved her. i'm made of wax, Larry. what are you made of?' taken from Night at the Museum, 26th president of the united states, Theodore Roosevelt.
good question. what am i made of?
14 oct has arrived for the 19th time ever since that day my mum went through agony and pain to bring me into this world. according to mum, she said that every 19 years, the birth date on chinese calender coincides with the one on the normal calender.
not that it mattered to me in the past, i don't even know which date is my chinese calender birth date. but somehow, when i heard about the 19 years thing, i find that i do actually care... particularly this year... particularly when you want something....
i find myself 'courting death' again, throwing myself in the fire, suicide murder, whatever you want to call it. i'm sure my pals would be thinking i'm real stupid enough to do that. but well, during certain times, our instinct and intellect fight each other and leave you to do 'stupid' things. and it happened several minutes ago, which, i must say i'm disappointed and not disappointed at the same time. real stupid i know...
sometimes i wonder how the human brain works. and how people see things. for me, if i were in that situation but different side, i would be thinking about the 'why's. but somehow it doesn't seem that way, and i doubt it's going to head in that direction anyway. can't say that i'm disappointed, because i don't know how to deal with it if it were in heading the other direction. i find that i like to run away. but sometimes, we know that running away is the right thing to do.
'you can run fast, but problem run faster'. quoted from Norbit. i'm sure that's true, we all know that. and i have first hand experience. (laughs) how silly... but i've decided not to run away this time. i decided to confront it, and by doing so, taking the risk of 20% vs 80% of 'that' happening. i know it's an excuse, but it is logical to explain it this way. and from the situation, and like always, the 20% is winning. hopefully wins at the end. but then, it'll be just like last year's journal entry written down on paper. regrets and disappointments.
i wonder again, is it human nature that we always want people to help us in difficult times? i mean, yeah i was like that before (ouchy quote), always waiting for someone to save me. but after a while, i realise no one came to my rescue. i don't know why is that so, maybe the people around me hated me or something, i just find that, whenever i'm in trouble or something, people know, be it they know it themselves or i tell them, but the thing is, they know and that's it. there's no suggestions to help me, unlike when others are in a little pickle i offer suggestions and help. there's no offer to help, which is obvious. there's no concern for that either, no 'hey the last time you said blah blah blah, how was it?'
it was then i realise that i've got to stand on my own feet, do what's right and save myself. that's when i stopped getting into trouble that often. sure there were misses, but the same thing always surfaces, no help, no concern, no care. i'm rather used to that, seriously. perhaps that's why whenever i have to deal with something, my mind starts to think of possible solutions, not one, but a few, and question them until the plan is foolproof. i always tell myself to be selfish than what i am now. i see a problem, you don't care, problem gets out of hand, i'm safe, you're not, i sit and drink tea and watch you die.
but i can't seem to be able to do that. always at the last moment, i'll stamp on my own feet and help the person out. then the story branches out to different versions, where there are people who takes, alters and get into more trouble or, take and throw, or blah blah blah yada yada yada.
so why is it that people still take help for granted? i don't know, and don't think i'll find out soon anyway.
was watching spider man 3 just now and i come to the same conclusion i did in march's entry. i don't know why is it aways so that friends die in the process of helping someone else. and i wonder, why do the good guys always die? do they deserve to die? i don't think so. in fact i hate it when someone, other than the bad guy, dies.
not such a good way to start 14 oct, but then, at least i know Zephyris might dxr someone for me, and Qianz is spamming my Cbox with concert details whahahahaha!!!!
looking back at my life, i find that i did a lot of things. played piano, clarinet, flute, guitar. watched so many manga and anime, although the amount is incomparable to Zeph and Qianz now. met many people, of which there are those whom i hate and love. stepping across and back that red line, which now i've no idea which side i am standing now. have some great times and bad ones.
but i have one regret.
that is i always lack the courage to do what i want to, be it good or bad...
'... i've never shot a wild beast, i'm not even brave enough to tell that beautiful woman i loved her. i'm made of wax, Larry. what are you made of?' taken from Night at the Museum, 26th president of the united states, Theodore Roosevelt.
good question. what am i made of?
.~*^Twilight Ring^*~.:
Friday, October 12, 2007
just met with Zephyris and i'm like laughing until i was about to barf the entire 'sticky chewy chocolate' together with the chicken baked rice and cheese sticks, plus the 4 cups of water out.
i merely mentioned the word 'fetish' due to a little incident i heard, and then she suddenly remembered something. she said the anime she watching, Rental Magica, and that the jiji inside there... 'has a fetish of collecting pots'
(laughing and pointing emoticon) (laugh and faint emoticon)
the moment she mentioned the word 'pot', i burst out laughing in the dine and continued until my leg hurt because of the blister... thanks to the new shoes my mum bought...
ok, the thing is, 'pot' is something that, in my opinion, isn't something one would count as a collection item. and second, well, is rather... ehem... well, um... i guess it's obvious why i laughed. i think...
anyway, i hate myself!
UGC a.k.a history. bloody hell. when i said i died on tuesday, i really died. REALLY DIED! great.
UB is not a place for organisms with single life.
but seriously, i doubt a cat or even Kyukon and Kyubi can survive...
and CSE a.k.a computer science isn't making me feel any better, after when i saw my UGC...
talk about UGC... i think Ms. Angelica's new method of tutorial/discussion period have no point. because, in my own class, there are these 2 particular people, who likes to shoot people down for their point. yes, it's good to have a contrasting point, but why do you have to make it sound like yours is ALWAYS right and everyone else's is WRONG?! WTH. they have no respect for others. and they think they are SAINTS.
hmmm.... deja vu...
seriously, if i 'kena' these two in my group, or even just one, i can kiss my participation marks goodbye. or like yanyi say, 'kong bia'. (hit the wall...)
i have a really interesting time listening to my oyaji commenting about my stuffies. he said Tako is 'fake'. Heigani is 'weird'. Baa 'looks real'. Thon is 'cute' and not 'qa gong gong'. Tamanta is 'lame'...
omg i really laughing... anyway. let's hope the 3rd time doesn't happen. keeping fingers cross despite everything else...
just met with Zephyris and i'm like laughing until i was about to barf the entire 'sticky chewy chocolate' together with the chicken baked rice and cheese sticks, plus the 4 cups of water out.
i merely mentioned the word 'fetish' due to a little incident i heard, and then she suddenly remembered something. she said the anime she watching, Rental Magica, and that the jiji inside there... 'has a fetish of collecting pots'
(laughing and pointing emoticon) (laugh and faint emoticon)
the moment she mentioned the word 'pot', i burst out laughing in the dine and continued until my leg hurt because of the blister... thanks to the new shoes my mum bought...
ok, the thing is, 'pot' is something that, in my opinion, isn't something one would count as a collection item. and second, well, is rather... ehem... well, um... i guess it's obvious why i laughed. i think...
anyway, i hate myself!
UGC a.k.a history. bloody hell. when i said i died on tuesday, i really died. REALLY DIED! great.
UB is not a place for organisms with single life.
but seriously, i doubt a cat or even Kyukon and Kyubi can survive...
and CSE a.k.a computer science isn't making me feel any better, after when i saw my UGC...
talk about UGC... i think Ms. Angelica's new method of tutorial/discussion period have no point. because, in my own class, there are these 2 particular people, who likes to shoot people down for their point. yes, it's good to have a contrasting point, but why do you have to make it sound like yours is ALWAYS right and everyone else's is WRONG?! WTH. they have no respect for others. and they think they are SAINTS.
hmmm.... deja vu...
seriously, if i 'kena' these two in my group, or even just one, i can kiss my participation marks goodbye. or like yanyi say, 'kong bia'. (hit the wall...)
i have a really interesting time listening to my oyaji commenting about my stuffies. he said Tako is 'fake'. Heigani is 'weird'. Baa 'looks real'. Thon is 'cute' and not 'qa gong gong'. Tamanta is 'lame'...
omg i really laughing... anyway. let's hope the 3rd time doesn't happen. keeping fingers cross despite everything else...
.~*^Twilight Ring^*~.:
Thursday, October 11, 2007
oosh! 20 cars in a row i took down and off the track! victory twice! whoho!!!
bloody hell the race yesterday i came in 5th and 2nd in the second race. all because of that sharp turn that i couldn't get pass, kept falling off the cliff...
and yay! got my revenge! twenty cars!!! victory victory!
anyway, boring day as usual, and like Zephyris said, 'your test like every week have one right'?
and my answer to that is yes. just after the midterms, and on tuesday is another quiz... for communications...
kon kara zettai makenai! ano yarou wa zettai taosuru!
well, that aside, like i said, boring day, and tomorrow is the day i dread, the last midterm exams tomorrow... but after that, having dinner with Zeph again. (peace) finally some tuning back of frequency.
i must say that i'm not the kind of person who would severe ties with someone easily unless that person did something really really bad, like shredded IceBerg or Remy, tore my comic books on purpose or smite me again and again until i can no longer take it and confront the person face to face. but i guess these things come by and irritate you after a while.
anyway, i had this weird dream this morning. i dreamt of a childhood friend whom i haven't seen in many many months. somehow it seems like we are the same age as now, but playing back at my old house. i woke up after a while, and realised there's school to attend. but the aftermath of that dream was really weird. i mean why would i dream of this person? yes i know he existed, but it's not like i was thinking or reminded of him during that day or any day near in that matter.
that day is approaching, i'm not concerned about myself, but rather whoever is leaving. somehow people like to leave singapore on that day... wonder why. it's a wonder, every time you try to forget something, and just when you think it's over, it comes back and look for you. it happened twice, i wonder if it'll happen for the 3rd, and if it does, will i be able to deal with it? or would it be like last time, a whole session of brooding about it and realise how stupid i was after some time?
life can be so unfair. whatever happened to 'huang tien bu fu you xin ren'? whatever happened to hard work? i'm trying hard to FORGET it and PUT IT BEHIND ME, but they just want to make fun of me. it's not like i'm WAITING for it, since i know it won't happen...
grrrrr....
hate, hate and hate some more...
perhaps i should just go get that pair of headphones to make myself happy. try a friend's way, retail therapy. (peace)
oosh! 20 cars in a row i took down and off the track! victory twice! whoho!!!
bloody hell the race yesterday i came in 5th and 2nd in the second race. all because of that sharp turn that i couldn't get pass, kept falling off the cliff...
and yay! got my revenge! twenty cars!!! victory victory!
anyway, boring day as usual, and like Zephyris said, 'your test like every week have one right'?
and my answer to that is yes. just after the midterms, and on tuesday is another quiz... for communications...
kon kara zettai makenai! ano yarou wa zettai taosuru!
well, that aside, like i said, boring day, and tomorrow is the day i dread, the last midterm exams tomorrow... but after that, having dinner with Zeph again. (peace) finally some tuning back of frequency.
i must say that i'm not the kind of person who would severe ties with someone easily unless that person did something really really bad, like shredded IceBerg or Remy, tore my comic books on purpose or smite me again and again until i can no longer take it and confront the person face to face. but i guess these things come by and irritate you after a while.
anyway, i had this weird dream this morning. i dreamt of a childhood friend whom i haven't seen in many many months. somehow it seems like we are the same age as now, but playing back at my old house. i woke up after a while, and realised there's school to attend. but the aftermath of that dream was really weird. i mean why would i dream of this person? yes i know he existed, but it's not like i was thinking or reminded of him during that day or any day near in that matter.
that day is approaching, i'm not concerned about myself, but rather whoever is leaving. somehow people like to leave singapore on that day... wonder why. it's a wonder, every time you try to forget something, and just when you think it's over, it comes back and look for you. it happened twice, i wonder if it'll happen for the 3rd, and if it does, will i be able to deal with it? or would it be like last time, a whole session of brooding about it and realise how stupid i was after some time?
life can be so unfair. whatever happened to 'huang tien bu fu you xin ren'? whatever happened to hard work? i'm trying hard to FORGET it and PUT IT BEHIND ME, but they just want to make fun of me. it's not like i'm WAITING for it, since i know it won't happen...
grrrrr....
hate, hate and hate some more...
perhaps i should just go get that pair of headphones to make myself happy. try a friend's way, retail therapy. (peace)
.~*^Twilight Ring^*~.:
Wednesday, October 10, 2007
see this girl? change the red scarf to light blue of those of byakuya, change bottom to short skirt like the vice captain of 12 division (er... sort of tight skirt la...), and she has her zampakutou slung across her back, like shigure. simple? (peace) of course, change her head to Raiin also... long black hair, tied in four parts with small metal clasps with carvings, and of course... she's not that short... and her shoes change to ninja shoes. the black ones. kakashi's.
ok, these are the pics for Zephyris for her story again. as for Raiin's clothes. since going according to everyone she'll use the 16 years old one
shinigami type, except is short skirt, (like kurotsuchi nemu, 12 Division vice captain), the top is the same as rukia and everyone else... (cos nemu's a bit different top and i don't like it.) and remember byakuya's scarf? she tie that around her waist with a gigantic knot/bow at her back, like temari during the last parts of Naruto first season.
make it simple
see this girl? change the red scarf to light blue of those of byakuya, change bottom to short skirt like the vice captain of 12 division (er... sort of tight skirt la...), and she has her zampakutou slung across her back, like shigure. simple? (peace) of course, change her head to Raiin also... long black hair, tied in four parts with small metal clasps with carvings, and of course... she's not that short... and her shoes change to ninja shoes. the black ones. kakashi's. aaaaannndddd.... no more.. i think. that's all for Raiin.
oh by the way, just a short one. i flunked CSE exam today, so if i pass that exam, the sun won't rise. so if one day the sun is extinguish, yeah, blame me.
.~*^Twilight Ring^*~.:
Tuesday, October 9, 2007
Name: Raiin/ Suen Hui
Status: Slaughtered.
Time: 4.30pm 9th October 2007
Venue: UGC midterm examination
Specific detail: Shang dynasty details missing
ok, i screwed up that exam... i mean 50 mcq qns, who is able to get full marks for it? i wonder. certainly not me. and i assume if Ms. Angelica returns us our papers during the discussion periods, Mr. F word is going to fire again. somehow Yanyi reminded me the existence of this guy before the exam and i agree with her that this guy has serious problem because every 3 words in his sentences there's a F word. i had one conversation with him once, that was the first and the last, and it goes to say a lot. whatever, as long as i'm out of hearing range i'm safe.
the essays, well, as usual i picked to do feminism and rights, something which without a proper structure i can crap alot. and yeah, i did, consider i exceeded her word limit of 350 words by i guess another 50 or so words?... dunno, didn't count. but should be more than that...
(seriously, some seiyuus who cannot sing, please don't... )
yep, the blogging before exams came back to me again. i'm having an exam on Computer science tomorrow and i'm now blogging. seriously, if that module is mcq i can let it go, but seriously tomorrow's is a written exam... what am i supposed to write?
'the computer is a highly advanced machine which operates on a binary system consisting of only 1s and 0s. when we key in an input with the keyboard, the computer translate the input into binary form, example 11011010 and operates on the given form before translating it back to decimal form which appears on our computer monitor screen.....'
IS THAT WHAT'S GOING TO HAPPEN TOMORROW?!
sheesh... anyway, i'm glad i got the earliest slot and i can just go for an hour or so and get back before the sun starts shooting UV rays at full blast at me and the traffic mob is at bay. i've still got to crack up an idea for ESL's on friday when she conducted the EXAM... talk about homework.... but i guess the teacher is nice today, she actually let us use the period for studying for the exam later, which is cool, but i messed it up because when my brain is at saturation point, it's at saturation point. and she asked this question 'figment of imagination' or 'fragment of imagination'.
then the immediate thought that came to me was the movie Ratatouille where the phrase, 'what can i do, i am only a figment of your imagination' rang for about 10 times in my ears. bwhahaha!!! talk about coincidence. (peace)
well, despite the horrible 50 mcq and 2 essay preparation yesterday, i was reading this manga, brace yourself, it's a boy love manga. yep, rather explicit, M18 content, but somehow the subbers did their work and edited the pictures a little, no content was lost, except for the outline of certain images.
reason why i went reading that was i was looking for another manga, something which i read halfway sometime ago and sort of lost it when book 3 ended in a cliff hanger. then instead of that one i came across this one. frankly, it was because the drawing looked nice, reminds me of one of the manga i read before, but i can't really remember which one, which is why i went clicking, and read. and also, i remembered mistaking 'BL' which meant 'boy love' for 'bo liao'.... I KNOW IT'S STUPID! but i mean the last time i saw the letters 'BL' put together was in primary school when people used that as a short form for saying 'bo liao'. but after Zephyris corrected me, it sort of lurked in my mind as a reminder not to make similar mistakes. so when i saw that manga labeled as 'BL' i clicked out of curiosity.
ok i'll admit, this one was not the first 'BL' manga i read, but the others, well, only one actually... the other one i read was not explicit. i mean there wasn't images as obvious as this one. but like i said, the subbers for this one tried their best to edit it, so kudos to them.
and after reading several pages, i actually felt sympathy for them. ok, the previous one was sweet, and it's a collective of stories revolving around this school, yes school, the idea's origin i'll never know... but this one was rather sad, because both of the guys are in prison, and the prison is not just any normal prison, but the ultimate one. so i guess that's the reason why they became like this. but under those circumstances, they can still thrive, and found a way to escape... ESCAPE... please... prison escape is already a difficult task, let alone the ultimate prison... but well, due to time constraint, i clicked on the last page, and yeah, they are both standing under the sun, fishing, and er.. kissing.
to be honest, i actually felt tears welling when i was reading it, (with my history notes staring angrily at me) and laughed at the same time. i'm not talking about the explicit scenes when they were um... temperature raising. but i'm more concerned about the storyline and how they survived together. and compare it to the normal guy/girl, i find this BL one more touching. it's plain obvious why is this so....
haha enough of that manga... before you guys start to think otherwise. bwhahaha. i'm still normal, so don't worry. (peace).... aww come on! people out there are writing what? NaruSasu fics? what else? KakaNaru? please! those are equally explicit! (bleh emoti)
anyway, i still find the movie 'the Holiday' a good reminder to me. don't know why, the movie is a happy ending, but somehow it actually reminded me of my resolutions, which is the complete opposite of the movie's end. bwhahaha! but i guess it's resignation that i was feeling.
like i told my mum ages ago when my parents were talking about that lost and found ring;
'it's yours, it's yours. it'll still come back no matter how hard you kick it away. it's not yours, it's not yours. it'll still escape no matter how you lock it up.'
how true.
and how true, the maths that operates.
positive and positive, you get positive.
negative and positive, you get negative.
negative and negative, you get positive.
works every time. universal mathematical equation that all matter and aspects based on.
how true. (peace)
Name: Raiin/ Suen Hui
Status: Slaughtered.
Time: 4.30pm 9th October 2007
Venue: UGC midterm examination
Specific detail: Shang dynasty details missing
ok, i screwed up that exam... i mean 50 mcq qns, who is able to get full marks for it? i wonder. certainly not me. and i assume if Ms. Angelica returns us our papers during the discussion periods, Mr. F word is going to fire again. somehow Yanyi reminded me the existence of this guy before the exam and i agree with her that this guy has serious problem because every 3 words in his sentences there's a F word. i had one conversation with him once, that was the first and the last, and it goes to say a lot. whatever, as long as i'm out of hearing range i'm safe.
the essays, well, as usual i picked to do feminism and rights, something which without a proper structure i can crap alot. and yeah, i did, consider i exceeded her word limit of 350 words by i guess another 50 or so words?... dunno, didn't count. but should be more than that...
(seriously, some seiyuus who cannot sing, please don't... )
yep, the blogging before exams came back to me again. i'm having an exam on Computer science tomorrow and i'm now blogging. seriously, if that module is mcq i can let it go, but seriously tomorrow's is a written exam... what am i supposed to write?
'the computer is a highly advanced machine which operates on a binary system consisting of only 1s and 0s. when we key in an input with the keyboard, the computer translate the input into binary form, example 11011010 and operates on the given form before translating it back to decimal form which appears on our computer monitor screen.....'
IS THAT WHAT'S GOING TO HAPPEN TOMORROW?!
sheesh... anyway, i'm glad i got the earliest slot and i can just go for an hour or so and get back before the sun starts shooting UV rays at full blast at me and the traffic mob is at bay. i've still got to crack up an idea for ESL's on friday when she conducted the EXAM... talk about homework.... but i guess the teacher is nice today, she actually let us use the period for studying for the exam later, which is cool, but i messed it up because when my brain is at saturation point, it's at saturation point. and she asked this question 'figment of imagination' or 'fragment of imagination'.
then the immediate thought that came to me was the movie Ratatouille where the phrase, 'what can i do, i am only a figment of your imagination' rang for about 10 times in my ears. bwhahaha!!! talk about coincidence. (peace)
well, despite the horrible 50 mcq and 2 essay preparation yesterday, i was reading this manga, brace yourself, it's a boy love manga. yep, rather explicit, M18 content, but somehow the subbers did their work and edited the pictures a little, no content was lost, except for the outline of certain images.
reason why i went reading that was i was looking for another manga, something which i read halfway sometime ago and sort of lost it when book 3 ended in a cliff hanger. then instead of that one i came across this one. frankly, it was because the drawing looked nice, reminds me of one of the manga i read before, but i can't really remember which one, which is why i went clicking, and read. and also, i remembered mistaking 'BL' which meant 'boy love' for 'bo liao'.... I KNOW IT'S STUPID! but i mean the last time i saw the letters 'BL' put together was in primary school when people used that as a short form for saying 'bo liao'. but after Zephyris corrected me, it sort of lurked in my mind as a reminder not to make similar mistakes. so when i saw that manga labeled as 'BL' i clicked out of curiosity.
ok i'll admit, this one was not the first 'BL' manga i read, but the others, well, only one actually... the other one i read was not explicit. i mean there wasn't images as obvious as this one. but like i said, the subbers for this one tried their best to edit it, so kudos to them.
and after reading several pages, i actually felt sympathy for them. ok, the previous one was sweet, and it's a collective of stories revolving around this school, yes school, the idea's origin i'll never know... but this one was rather sad, because both of the guys are in prison, and the prison is not just any normal prison, but the ultimate one. so i guess that's the reason why they became like this. but under those circumstances, they can still thrive, and found a way to escape... ESCAPE... please... prison escape is already a difficult task, let alone the ultimate prison... but well, due to time constraint, i clicked on the last page, and yeah, they are both standing under the sun, fishing, and er.. kissing.
to be honest, i actually felt tears welling when i was reading it, (with my history notes staring angrily at me) and laughed at the same time. i'm not talking about the explicit scenes when they were um... temperature raising. but i'm more concerned about the storyline and how they survived together. and compare it to the normal guy/girl, i find this BL one more touching. it's plain obvious why is this so....
haha enough of that manga... before you guys start to think otherwise. bwhahaha. i'm still normal, so don't worry. (peace).... aww come on! people out there are writing what? NaruSasu fics? what else? KakaNaru? please! those are equally explicit! (bleh emoti)
anyway, i still find the movie 'the Holiday' a good reminder to me. don't know why, the movie is a happy ending, but somehow it actually reminded me of my resolutions, which is the complete opposite of the movie's end. bwhahaha! but i guess it's resignation that i was feeling.
like i told my mum ages ago when my parents were talking about that lost and found ring;
'it's yours, it's yours. it'll still come back no matter how hard you kick it away. it's not yours, it's not yours. it'll still escape no matter how you lock it up.'
how true.
and how true, the maths that operates.
positive and positive, you get positive.
negative and positive, you get negative.
negative and negative, you get positive.
works every time. universal mathematical equation that all matter and aspects based on.
how true. (peace)
.~*^Twilight Ring^*~.:
Monday, October 8, 2007
Pictures for Zephyris to reference for your Ninja magic, good luck at writing, and wish me luck that i don't die tomorrow for the stupid history test.... click on the image for bigger la. cos my setting is to middle size haha.
Pictures for Zephyris to reference for your Ninja magic, good luck at writing, and wish me luck that i don't die tomorrow for the stupid history test.... click on the image for bigger la. cos my setting is to middle size haha.
.~*^Twilight Ring^*~.:
Zephyris!!!!! Omg! Matsumoto Rika as a PIG?! WHY THE HELL DID THEY PUT HER AS A PIG?! IF THEY WANT A PIG THEY SHOULD GO FOR MIYATA KOUKI! NOT HER! SHE'S FREAKING TOO GOOD TO BE THAT PIG!
somehow why is everything nice for you occurring in October? and everything that sux is stuck with me.... (half eye emoti)
OMG IS THAT TRUE? kindaichi special?! omg omg omg omg omg omg omg omg omg omg omg omg!!!!!!!!! keep me notice about that ok Zeph?????? ONEGAI!!!! TANOMU DAYO!!!!! (peace)
and about Heigani..... (bleh emoti) isn't that's why he's a good seiyuu? (peace)
so how's it? is she in your class???? if she is then dxr emoti!!!
sigh, been 'hallucinating' and 'imagining' things these days, perhaps i'm going crazy... Raiin should just come in and intervene or perhaps another anime or something else... better get back to homework and studying...
.~*^Twilight Ring^*~.:
Saturday, October 6, 2007
yesh! i finally corrected the blog formally known as 'Ninjas and Dragons', now officially '6th Division Captain' whahaha!!!! that'll be the outlet for me to do sequences for Raiin which i thought up of. phew... took me 3 hours to do so with the UGC book staring back at me, demanding me to go back to study.
surprisingly i couldn't do any studying today... weird... it always happens on Saturday... now that the whole house is mine! my parents and my maid is GONE!!!! yeah. and i'm studying now. pretty ironic...
out of the blue, i used iTunes for my music player today, and i'm listening to songs which are decade old and probably younger. surprisingly they are the ones to remind me how Raiin should be, and the good old days i have. i guess the only sane and reasonable and sound thing i should do is to incorporate Raiin into the life i'm having now. since, she pretty much saved my life last time, and i manage not to lose my sanity, that is unti 27 August, when she mysteriously disappeared.
the lobster is CUTE!!!! omg... i'm still calling it Heigani.... (bleh emoti)
was just reading Qianz's blog just now and i realised how much fun she had in her Uni life, compared to mine... it was just what i wanted mine to be like, but unfortunately, haha, i know it'll never be the same as hers. miss the good old days...
kenichi is finished.... yeah, devestating news to Zephyris, because no more beloved Seki Tomokazu with his 'gyaaaaa' and 'yieeeeeeee'. to me, well, one less buddy to keep my sanity... unless he does a comeback! yay!!!!
midterms is killing me. i'm now still staring at the book, trying to remember Mycenae and the whole lot of crap about democracy back so many millenniums. life just can't get any worse.
yesh! i finally corrected the blog formally known as 'Ninjas and Dragons', now officially '6th Division Captain' whahaha!!!! that'll be the outlet for me to do sequences for Raiin which i thought up of. phew... took me 3 hours to do so with the UGC book staring back at me, demanding me to go back to study.
surprisingly i couldn't do any studying today... weird... it always happens on Saturday... now that the whole house is mine! my parents and my maid is GONE!!!! yeah. and i'm studying now. pretty ironic...
out of the blue, i used iTunes for my music player today, and i'm listening to songs which are decade old and probably younger. surprisingly they are the ones to remind me how Raiin should be, and the good old days i have. i guess the only sane and reasonable and sound thing i should do is to incorporate Raiin into the life i'm having now. since, she pretty much saved my life last time, and i manage not to lose my sanity, that is unti 27 August, when she mysteriously disappeared.
the lobster is CUTE!!!! omg... i'm still calling it Heigani.... (bleh emoti)
was just reading Qianz's blog just now and i realised how much fun she had in her Uni life, compared to mine... it was just what i wanted mine to be like, but unfortunately, haha, i know it'll never be the same as hers. miss the good old days...
kenichi is finished.... yeah, devestating news to Zephyris, because no more beloved Seki Tomokazu with his 'gyaaaaa' and 'yieeeeeeee'. to me, well, one less buddy to keep my sanity... unless he does a comeback! yay!!!!
midterms is killing me. i'm now still staring at the book, trying to remember Mycenae and the whole lot of crap about democracy back so many millenniums. life just can't get any worse.
.~*^Twilight Ring^*~.:
Friday, October 5, 2007
oooho. just came home from meeting Zephyris! haha, second post again today, but just have a lot to say, apparently. haha.
anyway i left school pretty early, since i went to the earlier time slot for CSE (dxr emoti) and was playing 'puppet and puppeteer' with Karel. pretty dumb, i manage to figure the whole thing out pretty easily and made him dot the entire page with beepers whahaha! (laughing and pointing emoti) and phew, i manage to do myself justice on the History test, another full (peace), although i seriously think that that test was crap because 1. i didn't really study for it 2. i was sleeping in the library prior to the test 3. i got a high score for my phone game before studying for the test in the library 4. the test has an ESSAY which full marks is virtually impossible 5. the teacher marks too leniently...
then was squeezing on the mrt with people from SP, and apparently i think these three guys are talking the loudest in the cabin and taking a hell lot of space despite their bamboo figure. and guess what? i saw them in Comics Connection in PS after my dinner.... talk about small world... (Zeph's blue face emoti)
i am NEVER going to wear that shirt to school anymore.... you know the thing about clothes is that, within 1 or 2 weeks if you continue to wear the same 'pattern' of clothes, people 'stereotype' you to be which and which. as i can recall, the first two weeks i wore nothing but T-shirts all the way, which makes me look like a typical tom-boy (by the way is what i am and want, peace). hence on monday when i wore the Japanese schoolgirls' sweater, i've got 3 people telling me i look nice in it. ohkay... not a bad start. and then today i wore this shirt that makes me look like an 'auntie going to work'!!!! and the same 3 people said the same thing... well, i'm not saying anything negative about it, but just like communication's lecture, the point where 'presence of first impression' plays and affect people's perceptions. well, pretty true isn't it? (peace) the real reason why i won't wear that shirt is that one of the buttons came off, and it is bloody restrictive to my actions.... and i just had to 'act smart' and bring that bag... which bloody makes me look like an 'auntie'!!!! GAAH!
oh by the way i bought a lobster. wahahaha! (laughing and pointing emoti) 2.5 bucks. (peace) and it's lying flat on my table now with its beady eyes staring into space. i said that lobster's name is 'heigani' and Zeph was darn irritated. i dunno why.... Heigani is played by one of her favourite seiyuus in the first place.... (you didn't forget did you, Zeph?)
well, i just saw something just now which actually brings me to attention about something. the thing about social network, social space, it's rather shaky and uncertain to actually gauge the frontiers of it.
let's say, if one day, one of your acquaintance/friend makes friends with someone which you didn't have a good impression on vice versa. so what happens next? awkwardness when stuck between the two? excuse yourself when they are talking? try in vain to join in conversation?
i mean how do you judge a person in the first place? i know and believe first impression counts and matters a lot. i must say i'm not exactly the kind people would want to approach, which is the truth as experience has come to tell. and that i inherited the fierce and arrogant looking face from my mother... but i try at least to leave a neutral impression on people. and when i start to get to know people, they'll know how crazy and idiot a person i am. and if they are nice, i'm nice to them. if they irritate the hell out of me, the doors to Raiin's Hell will open and the chief devil from there will come out.
but what if the problem doesn't lies with you but the opposite party? what if out of the blue this person just stare at you with a menacing glare that obviously says 'don't come near me, you are not my type of friend?' what if they just don't want to even acknowledge you?
or, what if they see you in a different light (negative)? thinks that you are not worth a friend since you are not competent and a friendship with you is not beneficial? or, even worse, they see you as a threat to them?
so the story ends with two parties not being friends just because of communication breakdown and miscommunication? i think that's pretty sad. which is why i say, there are people who study communication for the sake of studying and passing exams.
but i guess i can't blame them because, though i'm trying my best to apply the concepts i've learnt in everyday life, i still have yet master the skill. changes can be made, but it is a matter of willingness and perseverance. nobody can see 'effort made', but through some mediums we can see if the person is trying or not. but then, sometimes it's a matter of choice. there are people who don't change because of the benefits of the current situation. there's also ignorance. nobody is perfect in the world, but people can work towards perfection, which is what life is about in the first place. changing ourselves to have a better tomorrow.
but well, as of last last thursday, or is it another thursday i forgot, i've lost my direction of perfection and my 'compass' thanks to a certain someone, who took my words literately, which i assume if that's the case, then that's really it. i did say before i'm a peace lover, but somehow people, not just this someone, seems to always take what i say to the obvious wrong way. no idea why, Zeph and Qianz and the others didn't seem to have this problem...
i'm thinking of clearing one of my blogs and post all the sequences of Raiin's stuff. since i made quite a few of them, and it'll be a waste if i just leave them forgotten.
hugging IceBerg and staring with droopy eyes... droopy eyes, oh yea, i used that phrase in one of my romance stories... ouch... that one was explicit! oops haha!
oooho. just came home from meeting Zephyris! haha, second post again today, but just have a lot to say, apparently. haha.
anyway i left school pretty early, since i went to the earlier time slot for CSE (dxr emoti) and was playing 'puppet and puppeteer' with Karel. pretty dumb, i manage to figure the whole thing out pretty easily and made him dot the entire page with beepers whahaha! (laughing and pointing emoti) and phew, i manage to do myself justice on the History test, another full (peace), although i seriously think that that test was crap because 1. i didn't really study for it 2. i was sleeping in the library prior to the test 3. i got a high score for my phone game before studying for the test in the library 4. the test has an ESSAY which full marks is virtually impossible 5. the teacher marks too leniently...
then was squeezing on the mrt with people from SP, and apparently i think these three guys are talking the loudest in the cabin and taking a hell lot of space despite their bamboo figure. and guess what? i saw them in Comics Connection in PS after my dinner.... talk about small world... (Zeph's blue face emoti)
i am NEVER going to wear that shirt to school anymore.... you know the thing about clothes is that, within 1 or 2 weeks if you continue to wear the same 'pattern' of clothes, people 'stereotype' you to be which and which. as i can recall, the first two weeks i wore nothing but T-shirts all the way, which makes me look like a typical tom-boy (by the way is what i am and want, peace). hence on monday when i wore the Japanese schoolgirls' sweater, i've got 3 people telling me i look nice in it. ohkay... not a bad start. and then today i wore this shirt that makes me look like an 'auntie going to work'!!!! and the same 3 people said the same thing... well, i'm not saying anything negative about it, but just like communication's lecture, the point where 'presence of first impression' plays and affect people's perceptions. well, pretty true isn't it? (peace) the real reason why i won't wear that shirt is that one of the buttons came off, and it is bloody restrictive to my actions.... and i just had to 'act smart' and bring that bag... which bloody makes me look like an 'auntie'!!!! GAAH!
oh by the way i bought a lobster. wahahaha! (laughing and pointing emoti) 2.5 bucks. (peace) and it's lying flat on my table now with its beady eyes staring into space. i said that lobster's name is 'heigani' and Zeph was darn irritated. i dunno why.... Heigani is played by one of her favourite seiyuus in the first place.... (you didn't forget did you, Zeph?)
well, i just saw something just now which actually brings me to attention about something. the thing about social network, social space, it's rather shaky and uncertain to actually gauge the frontiers of it.
let's say, if one day, one of your acquaintance/friend makes friends with someone which you didn't have a good impression on vice versa. so what happens next? awkwardness when stuck between the two? excuse yourself when they are talking? try in vain to join in conversation?
i mean how do you judge a person in the first place? i know and believe first impression counts and matters a lot. i must say i'm not exactly the kind people would want to approach, which is the truth as experience has come to tell. and that i inherited the fierce and arrogant looking face from my mother... but i try at least to leave a neutral impression on people. and when i start to get to know people, they'll know how crazy and idiot a person i am. and if they are nice, i'm nice to them. if they irritate the hell out of me, the doors to Raiin's Hell will open and the chief devil from there will come out.
but what if the problem doesn't lies with you but the opposite party? what if out of the blue this person just stare at you with a menacing glare that obviously says 'don't come near me, you are not my type of friend?' what if they just don't want to even acknowledge you?
or, what if they see you in a different light (negative)? thinks that you are not worth a friend since you are not competent and a friendship with you is not beneficial? or, even worse, they see you as a threat to them?
so the story ends with two parties not being friends just because of communication breakdown and miscommunication? i think that's pretty sad. which is why i say, there are people who study communication for the sake of studying and passing exams.
but i guess i can't blame them because, though i'm trying my best to apply the concepts i've learnt in everyday life, i still have yet master the skill. changes can be made, but it is a matter of willingness and perseverance. nobody can see 'effort made', but through some mediums we can see if the person is trying or not. but then, sometimes it's a matter of choice. there are people who don't change because of the benefits of the current situation. there's also ignorance. nobody is perfect in the world, but people can work towards perfection, which is what life is about in the first place. changing ourselves to have a better tomorrow.
but well, as of last last thursday, or is it another thursday i forgot, i've lost my direction of perfection and my 'compass' thanks to a certain someone, who took my words literately, which i assume if that's the case, then that's really it. i did say before i'm a peace lover, but somehow people, not just this someone, seems to always take what i say to the obvious wrong way. no idea why, Zeph and Qianz and the others didn't seem to have this problem...
i'm thinking of clearing one of my blogs and post all the sequences of Raiin's stuff. since i made quite a few of them, and it'll be a waste if i just leave them forgotten.
hugging IceBerg and staring with droopy eyes... droopy eyes, oh yea, i used that phrase in one of my romance stories... ouch... that one was explicit! oops haha!
.~*^Twilight Ring^*~.:
once again, i am now in CSE class and blogging again! Weeeee!!!!! and today i actually crashed another time slot. whaha! yay! later going to meet Zephyris for dinner at PS and get the stupid voucher for my mom...... (throw things emoti)
my coms friend actually mistook my previous post about the hair and dressing subject as reference to someone in particular. but when i was typing it was directed at someone else. yes, someone in another of my classes, a CLASS THAT HAS NONE OF MY FRIENDS THERE!!!!! so yeah... and seriously... he looks really like Morita's style... just take an air pump and pump up Morita, stretch him a bit and shove a pair of glasses at his face.
Zeph, i will laugh because it'll really be funny isn't it?! i mean he's 39 going 40! imagine a guy marrying at that age isn't really weird!!!! it's as if like he's wasting time isn't it? besides, he's too cool to be attached. and cute. (oh no.... i can't believe i actually say he's cute... BUT IT'S TRUE ISN'T IT ZEPH!!)
Oui you bloody hell! you were the one who say she's the 'da jie da' loh!!!! YOU DID! NOT ME!!! AT COFFEE BEAN! YOU FORGOT?!
Whahaha!!!!!! IceyBergy went to LAUNDRY!!!! haha. please la... he go laundry when i'm having the COMs exam loh.... i need company ok!!!!! (bleh emoti)
btw, if you really have a lot of ideas then i think you better write it down... ok scratch that. type it in your computer if not later you forget!!!! i do that also so hehe!
delusion delusion delusion. lie, lie and lie somemore
that's a show i am watching right now, it is really interesting. bwhahahaha!
how do you define a 'liar'? how do you define 'delusion'?
liar to me is someone who tells lies for over 5 times. delusion is false impression.
just how long can one lie until the time where all the lies will be all revealed?
how long will things last before it backfires?
how long will truth take to sink in?
and how long will it take for the impact of everything to finally let someone decide to change?
reality tv show? nope. it's 'live'! whahaha! i'll get ready my pop corn, cushion, IceBerg and watch the show. want to join me, Zeph?
.~*^Twilight Ring^*~.:
Thursday, October 4, 2007
WHAT THE HELL! ZEPHYRIS!
MORITA GOT THE AWARD FOR 'NEW' PEOPLE? IS HE EVEN CONSIDERED NEW?! HE DID SO MANY STUFF AND HE'S STILL NEW??!?!?!?!?! !@#$%^&*
and Seki is MARRIED?! oh yea wait... you did mention it somewhere.... gosh... whahaha... *your heart got break? need super glue? hehehe*
no need to be shy to me, Zeph. when i heard Itou was married with kids i was like 'har....' but seriously, if Yusa were to get married, whahaha! gosh i'm going to laugh for 3 days 3 nights.
then what the hell... why is it always Ishida?!?!?!?! he's got to be that 'super old' category right?! and GOSH!!!! MIYATA?!?!?!?!?!?!?!!? that's crazy ohkay...
haha! Fukuyama shall go down in history, is that what you were saying? haha. and yeah, three kow tows to our 'da jie da' for winning that whahahaha!!!!! seriously, i really hope one day she do a role that is really feminine. can't wait to see that. whahahahah!
and for god's sake la..... WHY THE HELL ITOU LOST TWICE TO THAT !@#$%^& MORITA?! AND HE USED ORIHIME?!?!?!?!!!? FOR GOD'S SAKE THAT'S IS THE ULTIMATE UNUSABLE ONE !!!!!!
and i thought his bankai was really tsuyoi last time? he managed to CHEW Ichimaru and ... er ... Byakuya... but yeah, the other time he really lost to Ichigo. BECAUSE ICHIGO KEEP USING BANKAI!!! i mean he's got to have that advantage right?! his reiatsu is really high, and he doesn't seem to need replenishing that often loh!!!! BIASED!!!!!!! ITOU!!!!!!!! RENJI!!!!!! (CRYING EMOTI) DIE MORITA! DIE ICHIGO! (dxr emoti!) and he's damn arrogant right?! RIGHT?!!!!
i told you before.... guys like Morita shouldn't waste their time attending voice lesson, they should be doing a bloody module called 'DRESS CODE' ! for god's sake... you know till this date i still haven't see any guys in my school who has the knack for ruining his hair like Morita does. oh wait.... wait wait.... there is!!!! YEAH! GOT!!! omg. YES, THERE ARE THESE PEOPLE IN SCHOOL!!!! these people just.... gaah.... wonder how their minds think...
and Morita has shoulder length hair? longer than in Soul Sonic 2006? if that's the case then i think the award thing is last year's... cos i think he cut his hair already (i suppose is thanks to Orikasa Fumiko, bwhahaha!), according to the magazine and that hard thing with his face in it. honestly, he's not bad looking, actually he's those who are 'above average', but his attitude just irks me and he has no sense of dressing...
anyway... enough of them. haha. excessive blogging about seiyuus these days... whahaha.
today's...... sigh..... i screwed up the Communications midterm exam..... i just threw 20 marks out the window like that.... if only i paid attention to that little freaking box more than all the negative points...... (brawling emoti) and a few more questions up front which i threw away the marks also..... yep... hopefully next tuesday when i get back, (if the teacher marks fast) i'll get my dad to collect my body after he knock off work....
what was i going to blog about.... oh yeah....
Iceberg finally came back! gosh i miss the days without him, even though it's just a day and half... haha... (sticking tongue emoti) my dad was frowning at me when i was brawling about Iceberg not sleeping with me. i mean some things aren't there it's not going to be the same whahaha!
anyway, what i was going to blog about is actually the false impression that i actually levelled up... today's exam is enough to show me. and the studying time i had was shrouded with hallucinations and imaginations which, by now if i really levelled up, should not be happening.... it's just me back to square one.... and now i've screwed the comns exam.... i ought to be shot.
once again, i arrive at this conclusion:
waiting for lightning to strike me
WHAT THE HELL! ZEPHYRIS!
MORITA GOT THE AWARD FOR 'NEW' PEOPLE? IS HE EVEN CONSIDERED NEW?! HE DID SO MANY STUFF AND HE'S STILL NEW??!?!?!?!?! !@#$%^&*
and Seki is MARRIED?! oh yea wait... you did mention it somewhere.... gosh... whahaha... *your heart got break? need super glue? hehehe*
no need to be shy to me, Zeph. when i heard Itou was married with kids i was like 'har....' but seriously, if Yusa were to get married, whahaha! gosh i'm going to laugh for 3 days 3 nights.
then what the hell... why is it always Ishida?!?!?!?! he's got to be that 'super old' category right?! and GOSH!!!! MIYATA?!?!?!?!?!?!?!!? that's crazy ohkay...
haha! Fukuyama shall go down in history, is that what you were saying? haha. and yeah, three kow tows to our 'da jie da' for winning that whahahaha!!!!! seriously, i really hope one day she do a role that is really feminine. can't wait to see that. whahahahah!
and for god's sake la..... WHY THE HELL ITOU LOST TWICE TO THAT !@#$%^& MORITA?! AND HE USED ORIHIME?!?!?!?!!!? FOR GOD'S SAKE THAT'S IS THE ULTIMATE UNUSABLE ONE !!!!!!
and i thought his bankai was really tsuyoi last time? he managed to CHEW Ichimaru and ... er ... Byakuya... but yeah, the other time he really lost to Ichigo. BECAUSE ICHIGO KEEP USING BANKAI!!! i mean he's got to have that advantage right?! his reiatsu is really high, and he doesn't seem to need replenishing that often loh!!!! BIASED!!!!!!! ITOU!!!!!!!! RENJI!!!!!! (CRYING EMOTI) DIE MORITA! DIE ICHIGO! (dxr emoti!) and he's damn arrogant right?! RIGHT?!!!!
i told you before.... guys like Morita shouldn't waste their time attending voice lesson, they should be doing a bloody module called 'DRESS CODE' ! for god's sake... you know till this date i still haven't see any guys in my school who has the knack for ruining his hair like Morita does. oh wait.... wait wait.... there is!!!! YEAH! GOT!!! omg. YES, THERE ARE THESE PEOPLE IN SCHOOL!!!! these people just.... gaah.... wonder how their minds think...
and Morita has shoulder length hair? longer than in Soul Sonic 2006? if that's the case then i think the award thing is last year's... cos i think he cut his hair already (i suppose is thanks to Orikasa Fumiko, bwhahaha!), according to the magazine and that hard thing with his face in it. honestly, he's not bad looking, actually he's those who are 'above average', but his attitude just irks me and he has no sense of dressing...
anyway... enough of them. haha. excessive blogging about seiyuus these days... whahaha.
today's...... sigh..... i screwed up the Communications midterm exam..... i just threw 20 marks out the window like that.... if only i paid attention to that little freaking box more than all the negative points...... (brawling emoti) and a few more questions up front which i threw away the marks also..... yep... hopefully next tuesday when i get back, (if the teacher marks fast) i'll get my dad to collect my body after he knock off work....
what was i going to blog about.... oh yeah....
Iceberg finally came back! gosh i miss the days without him, even though it's just a day and half... haha... (sticking tongue emoti) my dad was frowning at me when i was brawling about Iceberg not sleeping with me. i mean some things aren't there it's not going to be the same whahaha!
anyway, what i was going to blog about is actually the false impression that i actually levelled up... today's exam is enough to show me. and the studying time i had was shrouded with hallucinations and imaginations which, by now if i really levelled up, should not be happening.... it's just me back to square one.... and now i've screwed the comns exam.... i ought to be shot.
once again, i arrive at this conclusion:
waiting for lightning to strike me
.~*^Twilight Ring^*~.:
Wednesday, October 3, 2007
i seem to have a knack for blogging on the day, or should i say hours before a quiz or exam... well, crossing my fingers and hoping for the best for tomorrow's communication exam.
anyway, forgot to say this yesterday, but i think Yusa is very sweet to his dog. which brings me to my conclusion that he isn't married, but then again he's older than Itou, and Itou has kids already, so that's kinda not true... whichever. we'll come back to this after the horrible midterms with me looking like a zombie and trying to recover. like i said, i haven't mastered 'soutenkishuun', although Raiin has...
was just reading Qianz's blog, and i realised that though our paths diverged, her life is still pretty much the same as last time, while mine's a 180 degree turn... (don't use 360 degrees, you'll end up in the same place). although this is my blog, freedom of speech should be exercised with self-censorship, therefore i'll just congratulate Qianz for her new life.
pretty much nothing to say, except that i am now freaked out by tomorrow's exam, although it's only 10%.... but it always end up like this. small little things have the great ability to unerve me.... i mean, i've did 2 quizes and those are MCQ... and now i'm suppose to cough up an ESSAY? what the...
like i said to my dad, 'if i die tomorrow, please come and collect my body, thanks'.
i seem to have a knack for blogging on the day, or should i say hours before a quiz or exam... well, crossing my fingers and hoping for the best for tomorrow's communication exam.
anyway, forgot to say this yesterday, but i think Yusa is very sweet to his dog. which brings me to my conclusion that he isn't married, but then again he's older than Itou, and Itou has kids already, so that's kinda not true... whichever. we'll come back to this after the horrible midterms with me looking like a zombie and trying to recover. like i said, i haven't mastered 'soutenkishuun', although Raiin has...
was just reading Qianz's blog, and i realised that though our paths diverged, her life is still pretty much the same as last time, while mine's a 180 degree turn... (don't use 360 degrees, you'll end up in the same place). although this is my blog, freedom of speech should be exercised with self-censorship, therefore i'll just congratulate Qianz for her new life.
pretty much nothing to say, except that i am now freaked out by tomorrow's exam, although it's only 10%.... but it always end up like this. small little things have the great ability to unerve me.... i mean, i've did 2 quizes and those are MCQ... and now i'm suppose to cough up an ESSAY? what the...
like i said to my dad, 'if i die tomorrow, please come and collect my body, thanks'.
.~*^Twilight Ring^*~.:
Tuesday, October 2, 2007
WHAT?! YUSA IS 39??????????????? OMG HE LOOKS SO DAMN FREAKING YOUNG IN SOUL SONIC 2006 !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
OH MY GOD!!!!! if that's true, he really knows how to stay young. is he married? i doubt so right?
AND HOW LONG HAS HE BEEN IN THERE? OUCH! I JUST SAW HIS PROFILE AND HE HASN'T GOT MUCH! AND HIS VOICE IS SO YOUNG!!!!!!!!!!!!! GAAAAAAAAAAAAH!!!!!!!
grr.... seriously, is he married? i'm really curious! i mean Itou is younger than him, and he's already got kids?! but i know Yusa has a dog. look at this
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Scr4IeykVfM can't embed it so ya. Zephyris! you see?! omg... don't ask me how i got the video. i just came home and was so freaking hungry and i'm still here with my bowl of noodles reading your blog.
WHAT?! YUSA IS 39??????????????? OMG HE LOOKS SO DAMN FREAKING YOUNG IN SOUL SONIC 2006 !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
OH MY GOD!!!!! if that's true, he really knows how to stay young. is he married? i doubt so right?
AND HOW LONG HAS HE BEEN IN THERE? OUCH! I JUST SAW HIS PROFILE AND HE HASN'T GOT MUCH! AND HIS VOICE IS SO YOUNG!!!!!!!!!!!!! GAAAAAAAAAAAAH!!!!!!!
grr.... seriously, is he married? i'm really curious! i mean Itou is younger than him, and he's already got kids?! but i know Yusa has a dog. look at this
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Scr4IeykVfM can't embed it so ya. Zephyris! you see?! omg... don't ask me how i got the video. i just came home and was so freaking hungry and i'm still here with my bowl of noodles reading your blog.
.~*^Twilight Ring^*~.:
Monday, October 1, 2007
i supposed i made a big fuss about Fukuyama piercing his ears, because according to Zephyris, that scene was taken long time ago, so i guess in recent times when i see him appearing, that was not the case...
and speaking of which, apparently Fukuyama himself appeared many times in Voice (was that the name of the magazine?) October issue, and he was voted top seiyuu for November. YAY!!! Morita is finally dethroned!!! yippie (throws flowers) and apparently well, Zeph and i didn't like Morita and fate just had to feature him in this issue. with this, well i don't call that a poster... it's kinda hard. haha. so whatcha going to do with that Zeph?
both of us agreed that with his hair short, he looks nicer. ok fine, more handsome. ok scratch that. just stick to nice. i mean, look at him in Soul Sonic 2005, he dyed his hair ORANGE? ok fine, if you're trying to portray your character's style, go ahead. but 2006's you totally destroyed it. with that.... whatever. even Orikasa Fumiko said something about it. haha and in Shuffle Talk somemore...
well i got to admit when i saw Fukuyama and Yusa Koji in 2005's matsuri... i'm like, oh my god.... (in a good way). yeah seriously Yusa is better off in white, as in all white, although his wardrobe consist of a high percentage of black clothing.... kinda like me (peace)
2006 Fukuyama sorta look like Morita... which accounts for the sudden shock when he wore dangling earrings. Yusa is, as usual, great in his white for 3rd Stage, but sorta satisfied his wardrobe's demands in 4th Stage.
Morita is as usual, a destroyer of his image himself, which accounts for the sloppy T-shirts and khakis/Bermudas, with the look of his hair. can't remember 1st Stage, but on the 4th Stage he did something to make himself look, presumably, better. although if anyone who hasn't seen Morita before and saw his face only without his torso, would have thought it was a girl and not a guy. i'm serious...
Itou Kentarou.... guess he's one of those weirdly dressed ones, but at least he's decent enough to wear trousers, at least long ones, considering his age... the complete opposite of Morita. and haha. Yasumoto Hiroki said he didn't wear sleeveless sports top and he was like 'you seem to have a problem with me not wearing sleeveless tops huh' jokingly and the next moment he rolled up his sleeves. that was a laugh, haha!!! though i must say 4th Stage he sort of went weird out of a sudden because he wore something that gives you an impression of a singlet...
Fukuyama was rather weird in 2006 because i remembered he did the same as Itou in 2005. and that one is really a singlet.... but then dunno why... it looked O.K on him... i guess because he was more built than Itou, possibly taller. but wasn't Itou the sporty one? haha, but then in 2006 Fukuyama wore something that completely blends him with the backdrop... if it wasn't for his hands and head, i swear i wouldn't know there's someone there.
Yusa looks old in the magazine Zeph bought today... yep... old... how old is he, Zeph? but seriously he looked rather different in Soul Sonic 2006... well nevermind. it's not like i'll see him in real life anyway.
i guess that's the thing with guys. those with or without looks (in general) go for it to look better. but after a while they head the other way. like... um.. what's his name... Koyasu, according to Zeph he didn't really care about his image anymore. and Miki, well, not that he totally ignored it, but relax a little on his standards i guess. others, Seki Toshihiko, Inoue Kazuhiko blah blah blah, as times go, a simple woolen sweater or shirt with long formal pants and head for work and shoots.
well, 'beauty is in the eyes of the beholder', which accounts for the various types of people you meet on the street or in school or far away. i won't say i'm pretty, i would never say that. (i just destroyed my face yesterday by the way... now it's all red and patchy... great...) and seriously... if i were to take what people say to me about my looks, i would have been as skinny as a bamboo stick. but considering how i look now, with some tinge of regrets due to adolescences folly, i guess laziness is the key to my taking people's spikes and nails and turn them into bubbles. and my promise to myself is yet fulfilled, though it has nothing to do with how i look, but closely related to it... (sounds ironic and contradicting and oxymoronic.)
anyway today's the start of October. i guess that wraps up a month and a few days of college life. i must say it was not the nicest part of my life so far... i mean... no one would want to be in my shoes. i'm stuck in the middle of nowhere, i've seen verbal wars, been in some, and i'm really tired of having tests here and there, with a timetable that sux big time.
seriously this is not the way to start a new phase of my life. it'll just make the next three and half years worse with such a start. but then, who cares right? i used to be a background character, this time i tried to change that, and i realise that's not where i'm supposed to be. i guess i should just go back to being a backdrop.
i supposed i made a big fuss about Fukuyama piercing his ears, because according to Zephyris, that scene was taken long time ago, so i guess in recent times when i see him appearing, that was not the case...
and speaking of which, apparently Fukuyama himself appeared many times in Voice (was that the name of the magazine?) October issue, and he was voted top seiyuu for November. YAY!!! Morita is finally dethroned!!! yippie (throws flowers) and apparently well, Zeph and i didn't like Morita and fate just had to feature him in this issue. with this, well i don't call that a poster... it's kinda hard. haha. so whatcha going to do with that Zeph?
both of us agreed that with his hair short, he looks nicer. ok fine, more handsome. ok scratch that. just stick to nice. i mean, look at him in Soul Sonic 2005, he dyed his hair ORANGE? ok fine, if you're trying to portray your character's style, go ahead. but 2006's you totally destroyed it. with that.... whatever. even Orikasa Fumiko said something about it. haha and in Shuffle Talk somemore...
well i got to admit when i saw Fukuyama and Yusa Koji in 2005's matsuri... i'm like, oh my god.... (in a good way). yeah seriously Yusa is better off in white, as in all white, although his wardrobe consist of a high percentage of black clothing.... kinda like me (peace)
2006 Fukuyama sorta look like Morita... which accounts for the sudden shock when he wore dangling earrings. Yusa is, as usual, great in his white for 3rd Stage, but sorta satisfied his wardrobe's demands in 4th Stage.
Morita is as usual, a destroyer of his image himself, which accounts for the sloppy T-shirts and khakis/Bermudas, with the look of his hair. can't remember 1st Stage, but on the 4th Stage he did something to make himself look, presumably, better. although if anyone who hasn't seen Morita before and saw his face only without his torso, would have thought it was a girl and not a guy. i'm serious...
Itou Kentarou.... guess he's one of those weirdly dressed ones, but at least he's decent enough to wear trousers, at least long ones, considering his age... the complete opposite of Morita. and haha. Yasumoto Hiroki said he didn't wear sleeveless sports top and he was like 'you seem to have a problem with me not wearing sleeveless tops huh' jokingly and the next moment he rolled up his sleeves. that was a laugh, haha!!! though i must say 4th Stage he sort of went weird out of a sudden because he wore something that gives you an impression of a singlet...
Fukuyama was rather weird in 2006 because i remembered he did the same as Itou in 2005. and that one is really a singlet.... but then dunno why... it looked O.K on him... i guess because he was more built than Itou, possibly taller. but wasn't Itou the sporty one? haha, but then in 2006 Fukuyama wore something that completely blends him with the backdrop... if it wasn't for his hands and head, i swear i wouldn't know there's someone there.
Yusa looks old in the magazine Zeph bought today... yep... old... how old is he, Zeph? but seriously he looked rather different in Soul Sonic 2006... well nevermind. it's not like i'll see him in real life anyway.
i guess that's the thing with guys. those with or without looks (in general) go for it to look better. but after a while they head the other way. like... um.. what's his name... Koyasu, according to Zeph he didn't really care about his image anymore. and Miki, well, not that he totally ignored it, but relax a little on his standards i guess. others, Seki Toshihiko, Inoue Kazuhiko blah blah blah, as times go, a simple woolen sweater or shirt with long formal pants and head for work and shoots.
well, 'beauty is in the eyes of the beholder', which accounts for the various types of people you meet on the street or in school or far away. i won't say i'm pretty, i would never say that. (i just destroyed my face yesterday by the way... now it's all red and patchy... great...) and seriously... if i were to take what people say to me about my looks, i would have been as skinny as a bamboo stick. but considering how i look now, with some tinge of regrets due to adolescences folly, i guess laziness is the key to my taking people's spikes and nails and turn them into bubbles. and my promise to myself is yet fulfilled, though it has nothing to do with how i look, but closely related to it... (sounds ironic and contradicting and oxymoronic.)
anyway today's the start of October. i guess that wraps up a month and a few days of college life. i must say it was not the nicest part of my life so far... i mean... no one would want to be in my shoes. i'm stuck in the middle of nowhere, i've seen verbal wars, been in some, and i'm really tired of having tests here and there, with a timetable that sux big time.
seriously this is not the way to start a new phase of my life. it'll just make the next three and half years worse with such a start. but then, who cares right? i used to be a background character, this time i tried to change that, and i realise that's not where i'm supposed to be. i guess i should just go back to being a backdrop.
.~*^Twilight Ring^*~.: