Sunday, September 28, 2008
wa long time no blog le. so let's back up a little.
saturday. oo, went to chap ji ka at a dinner. wow, your 'ah pek' is really sacarstic... i salute him sia... and first time see kimmy open his mouth and talk so much. whahahaha!!!! long time no eat de bake rice!!!!
friday. clark quay-ed to write resume (a crappy one), eat subway, sushi and @cash with buddha strings. wa you really ge gao... over that pinky line... whahahahahaha. so tempted to buy the organizer at kino.
thursday. dunno what i was doing. can't remember le.
hmm... i've been sleeping at the other side of the bed, and apparently it has been generating many weird dreams. and this is the second time i dreamt of yang meh meh... creepy.
.~*^Twilight Ring^*~.:
Tuesday, September 23, 2008
there's something about anime that i find it never fails to take me out of my current mood and place me in another which i will go to lengths to make sure i finish it in one sitting and literately kill any bug that interrupt me.
or maybe it's just bleach. for some reason the music it has was abstract to the extent that i can never comprehend what its melody was, but yet there's something about the soul slayers and kidous that never seem to disappoint me.
they say that we sometimes search too far for answers that are right in front of us. and i guess i was the stupid one not to realise where my call is, and where that 'home' i belong to is.
just finished Diamond Dust Rebellion, although in the end i didn't really get the whole point, but i guess being away for so long makes it a great hit to me.
i have this sudden urge to listen to all my japanese anime songs, suddenly have the urge to watch anime movies, suddenly have the urge to watch all the episodes that i've missed regardless of their trashy quality or not.
and i realise, within it there's just so many things that are worth thinking about. and i guess the primary reason why i loved them so much is because they let me live the life i want.
a life where everyone shares each others' happiness and sorrow, where there'll always be someone to watch your back, where you can wake up everyday feeling that there's a purpose in life and that you aren't worthless, and that you have the power to overcome any challenge that come your way.
and that they let me be the person i want to be.
someone who can walk the streets saying hi to people with a slap on the back and a punch in the fist, someone who laugh for all she cares with a laughing crowd, someone who can fight back an assailant with people by her side, and more importantly, someone who isn't worthless and insignificant, that people will come tell her troubles and she'll go punch that idiot in the face, and that people come to her for help which she can go all out to help.
all these while i've been wondering where Raiin went, i guess i have finally found the answer to that.
Raiin is an anime portrayal of the ideal self i want to be, naturally she lives in the virtual anime world.
the day i left that behind, was the day i left Raiin behind.
i'm glad to have found the solution of my long lost question, and to Raiin,
'i'm back'
.~*^Twilight Ring^*~.:
Monday, September 22, 2008
section 2 gathering. whahahaha blast. before that met with buddha strings to go hunt for scores, saw two hmmmm, still can be considered shuai ge-s at the cafe in esplanade cafe, she ordered a 5.50 plain water whahahahahaha!
continue torturing Edlin with 'taiymes up you gadda staap'. whahahahahaha!!!!!!!
and Kidney's 'my kidneys are laughing!' oh wait, upgraded already. 'my liver is laughing' whahahahha!
was going to 'took kyu', but in the end that place 'dao bi' le, so went to mind's cafe and had a stupendous round of halli galli and TABOO!!! omg i miss that game so much!
i swear i'm going to hate that top... SHOULD HAVE BOUGHT SIZE 2 INSTEAD OF 3!!!!!!
now i got a new nickname... no more lizard, but stalker lampost
to this geek that is the equivalent of an annoying fly that just wouldn't die at the spray of insecticide, i am her friend, not her freaking mother, so stop asking me where she is!
.~*^Twilight Ring^*~.:
Thursday, September 18, 2008
it's not like i didn't try. i've tried for a long time already.
but like they say, it takes two hands to clap.
since i am putting in the effort yet it doesn't make much of a difference, i think i'd rather save my energy for some other things.
it's not like i want it this way, but you choose to shut me out.
there's nothing to lose anyway. since you get what you want, and i'll get mine.
.~*^Twilight Ring^*~.:
Monday, September 15, 2008
i think i should give up trying to comprehend the law of attraction, much less using it to my advantage. because quite frankly, i think today's presentation didn't go well, judging from those feedback i got. and to be very superbly honest, if i typed this entry hours ago, it would have been red and with caps, because i just find that some things and people ought to be fed rat poison. forget it, i think we should have smiled more eerily with more sinister, and add in more details like before it was edited and make it as explicit as possible. all in efforts of giving you people nightmares. except maybe for one, who idolises Albert Fish and loves Ted Bundy... that one, i shall not try to comprehend, because i'll say that my threshold increased a little after completing this speech, but not to the level that i embrace the serial killers.
enough of that, i'll do my own evaluation later.
funny how history repeats itself, and i find myself once again in that position helplessly. but i'm thankful for what i saw. it was unexpected, but at least it was comforting enough to know that i can do it. and i'll keep that.
but it is rather surprising how things creep up to you, and i'm really thankful for that dream earlier during my nap. for that brief moment that i was awake, i thought it was real. of course, reality has a way of slapping truth into your face and i'm left with nothing but disappointment while lying in bed with glacier sniffing my face and iceberg strangling me. despite it was just a dream, i'm really thankful that it even happen, since for the past years it has never happened before, either it didn't come, or it came with rather horrifying details and twisted line. i know it was only a dream, but it was a dream that seemed so logical and realistic that i really thought it was happening. and i find that, in my dreams, it was never Raiin, but myself. i was the one who appeared in the dreams, not Raiin, which makes it even more realistic to be fooled to even think for a moment it happened.
perhaps i should give the law of attraction another try. perhaps not to get the scenario that was too far-fetched, but at least, to have room for more.
.~*^Twilight Ring^*~.:
Saturday, September 13, 2008
one thing i can remember from the last time i blogged, is a very subtle argument with someone by the name, or nickname, whatever, which up till now i can safely conclude that both the person who gave the nickname and the one who uses it are mentally retarded.
honestly, because of the fact that it is over the keyboard, and i have the tendency to have typos, and not make things difficult for someone who has to deal with this already difficult person, i decided to just end off with 'whatever'.
but let me say my peace, if it were on the phone, if it were in real life, if it were not during the crazy hours of the morning, i would have gotten my way. sure, one more person who has me on hate list, but i don't give a damn since this person is pretty much already embedded on my hate list together with all those i can't wait to become a serial killer to eliminate.
so to this retarded part of a breakfast set, process in which chicken is born to be eaten, full of cholesterol aka crap:
don't let me see you on the street, because if i do, i'll push you onto to the on-coming traffic.
.~*^Twilight Ring^*~.:
Wednesday, September 10, 2008
whahahahahaha!!!!!!
this is the one time in many many days or weeks, that a table of 4 people sitting at an isolated table and laugh until we can't finish our food.
i hereby proclaim that i am good at irritating people, turning people into sun wu kongs and giving them a headache of their life they'll never forget.
whahahahahahahaha!!!!!
and all it took was 'time's up, you gotta stop' to drive our long time no see friend of SRGE back in the days of hellish torture, Edlin up the wall!!!!!! whahahahahahahaha!!!!!!
so, whoever has her number, pls zi dong yi dian. give me her number, so i can send her messages of 'time's up, you gotta stop'. whahahahahaha!!!!!!
wheeeeeeeeeee~
i think, the law of attraction is creepy. yes. creepy.
um... ya, despite trying to use that, i still significantly fail because sometimes things just don't go the right way...
and surprises of surprises. whahahahaha!!!!
oh ya, talk about yang meh meh, this person is one head taller than me... i smsed buddha strings to tell her immediately. whahahahahahaha
nevermind.
agar agar doesn't go well with chocolate milk, which explains why i'm cringing now... ok, rinse my mouth. blehhhhh!
.~*^Twilight Ring^*~.:
Tuesday, September 9, 2008
buddha strings. (WHAHAHAHAHA) whoever said that, own up.on another side. allow me to further laugh out loud
WHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA!!!!!!!!!LOSER!!!!!!! (NOT refering to the same person who said buddha strings)OMG! AND THIS PERSON PLAYS SAX?????SUGAR HONEY ICE TEA!MY CLARINET FLUTE PIANO AND GUITAR ROCKS DUDE!!!!!!in terms of music, i'm more versatile!!!! (self-proclaimed)YANG MEH MEH (NOT refering to the revered and sorely-missed kick-ass photographer and chem teacher)WHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA!!!!!!CAN'T DRIVE!!!!!!!!! (ok, shouldn't say that. i can't either)OMG!!! LET ME LAUGH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!WEIRD HAIR!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! EEEEEEEEEEEEEW!GAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAH!!!!!!!i suspect this person is homo... BWHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA!!!!!!!what else...oh yaSELF-PROCLAIMED PERVERT!!!!!!!!! WHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA!!!!!!!Dictionary explanation of 'that' word: gloomily or sullenly ill-humored, as a person or moodneed me to say more? i mean, laugh more??
on another note, despite my reference that this yang-meh-meh looks like Mr. Mentally Retarded, the one who said 'buddha strings' didn't agree and said that mr. mentally retarded looks like an egg. (at this point i'm beyond any means of control for the outburst of laughter)
which is then i realise that that's why mr. mentally retarded and creepy eggs are BFs cos they are the same species!!!!!!
then buddha strings said creepy eggs once said his girlfriend's name 'janine = jia nai= add milk'
so
egg + milk = breakfast set
(at this point im in no way of controlling laughter. and i don't give a hoover dam if my mum comes in to shout at me)
so. yang-meh-meh + mr. mentally retarded + breakfast set = uncontrolled laughter
best laugh i had in days.
and i wonder, if i were to see this person again, am i going to burst out laughing??
can't imagine. let nature take it's course. law of attraction, if it attracts laughter, then so be it.
WAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA!!!!
.~*^Twilight Ring^*~.:
Sunday, September 7, 2008
tuesday after socio lesson was a long lunch with school maties at pizza in lucky plaza. gossips and more gossips. and as i was sitting in the middle of the many tables they put up to accomodate all of us, i heard so many gossips that i was simply laughing to myself.
friday was celebration of birthdays for the three virgos. happy bdae to all of you!
lunch at Raku Zen was amazing. didn't know their jap food was that good. and strangely why did it close in the afternoon... after that was pool with half of the group while the others went out to sing. pool was, hmm.. not so bad, especially as i'm a noob, keep giving free balls to the other team and hitting in the wrong direction. but eventually i think i manage to sink a few balls, so that's plus sign. then unglam wanted to play arcade games, and yesh, freaking shock at how she played, which is like damn freaking pro at all the games (i wonder how many times she visit the arcade in a month...) whahaha.
after that had to leave early to get some guitar strings, which is a complete disaster because the damn place had a whole row of 'sold out' tags hanging. what is that?! hanging gardens of yamaha?! damn it!
yes, feeling down lately, super down, as i watch everyday my dad's movement differ more and more. honestly, i've been burying myself in PageOne lately for most of the afternoons by taking long trips from school to vivo and starving myself until late in the afternoon.
honestly, that day which i couldn't take the hunger anymore and sat at Subway alone to eat was really a horrible feeling. i hate to eat alone. which is probably why i prefe to starve myself. which is again a good thing cos i lost 3 kg. yep. i shall work out more, to lose more and tone myself.
thats probably the only place i rather be a loser than a gainer. whahaha. not making sense, as usual.
speech topic for informative speech is decided. serial killers. another 'bao dian' topic. cannibalism lost to serial killers for not being able to fit in honolulu's skeleon. and was reading the exploits of these killers, i feel sad for the world and human kind, that such people exist.
and was reading through my previous posts dating from last year till now, i find that there's only one word to describe me.
childish.
tbc... tired thanks to the theory assignment. i hate that teacher btw...
.~*^Twilight Ring^*~.:
Tuesday, September 2, 2008
i wish i can cry
just cry my heart out
and not worry about swollen eyes and headaches...
the notion of using Grimmjow's shoulder to cry on wasn't at all helpful
because i know, that isn't real
give me one day
so i can cry my heart out without worrying about questions
.~*^Twilight Ring^*~.:
