Saturday, May 16, 2009
the other day i dreamt i was killed by a vampire. the story now is very blurred because i have the tendency to forget dreams almost as soon as i wake up. but it involved betrayal of a couple, a little kid, family heritage, and a vampire who suck at remorse and acting. but yes, i was killed with a small little slit at my left pinky with a knife and a vampire bite on my right hand.
so literately, i woke up 'dead', much like in novels of people who wake up after being bitten by a vampire and asking where the hell they are and how they 'survived'. and my pinky hurts. so my first reaction was 'yes it's a dream, but i woke up dead'. nevermind, and within an hour's time i bathed, dressed, ate and hurried out of my house to the place where i go to for answers. kinokuniya/pageone. but i was thinking of kinokuniya because pageone lack something that is vital to my life.
but my sole motive wasn't the answers for the dream, was rather for my life-source so end up holding a D-Grayman's artbook, Art of Bleach and a book of gemstones for my powerstone-fanatic mum before wandering around like a lifeless doll and stumbling upon the shelf of dreams.
so, i grabbed a book, and started interpreting my dream. there's a vampire, and it says in there dreaming of a vampire is because someone untrustworthy is nearby or you don't trust someone. there's death in there, and it says that dreaming of death does not mean a literal death in someone in real life, more like a belief, value or a habit, and dreaming of yourself dying means you kicked a habit, stop believing in a value or belief. and death, for some reason signifies 'rebirth'...
ohkay... i thought at that point, so i'm not going to die and i'm going to be reborn-ed. so what did i stop believing? who's that untrustworthy person around? and am i really going to be reborn-ed?
i mean, i was, WAS reborn-ed, ever since the start of the holidays i reborn-ed into the person whom i once was, only a little more maniac-ish. and i stop believing in nothing, because i always believed in myself, and all those values that were reinforced into me. i certainly didn't stop believing in love, although i'm very skeptical about it, but it's been like that since my birth so it doesn't really matter. there ain't that much untrustworthy people around, although i myself have a clear idea of who to trust who not to. so, what the hell?
then i met pal. she say 'ya, you 放下 him le ar'. ohkay, that interpretation seems logical, but wasn't that a long time ago already? like long long ago even before the start of my holidays? well if that's the case this dream came VERY later arrrrrrrr~.
but then i guess it seems logical that this dream, if interpreted correctly, came late is completely understandable. because i'm a very slow person, which i have realised on TWO occasions. ok i'm slow. sue me.
ohkay, but then, to a person who don't believe in 100% of things, i shall keep this dream as a warning sign, as a sign of turning point, and a reminder, for future references. because i simply isn't spiritual enough to become a prophet or fortune-teller that i can predict what happens next time.
but still it's freaky, to wake up being dead...
