Sunday, April 5, 2009
i had a freaky dream last night... or rather this morning... i'm quite bewildered that i actually had such a dream, and this time i could see concrete features, although i don't quite remember now.
and for some funny reason is that, before i went to sleep, i was trying to use loa. and if that's what loa got me, then i think i ought to change my methods, or a more simpler way, give up and just face the facts.
in fact, i'm still shaking from that dream now, too bewildered to even do my work.
my mind is turning crazy, my body is failing me. external effects, please just, spare me these few weeks, after that you can haunt me anytime you want, but just let me pass these weeks in peace.
and to this incident that happened to me a few weeks ago, i bid thee goodbye, because i may be trapped in a vicious cycle, but everytime i strayed into such thoughts, i will be stopped, by whoever dominates my wallpaper now. and i realise, yes, i'm dead, in a literal sense. because i can no longer feel anything anymore.
