Friday, January 2, 2009
another year has passed and it's now 2009.
a look back at the year, and i think, it is indeed an eventful year for many of us. for me, it was a year of learning, not just academically, but many valuable lessons in life. and as i stood at the edge of 2008, over looking all that has happened, it does seem like a roller coaster ride, to the extreme.
i realised how important sacrifices are at times of life
i saw how complicated things can become
i learnt how to grow up
i learnt how to communicate better, although not the best, but i'm trying
i understood the importance of friends
i learnt the law of attraction
i was married and divorced an anime character
i took on a Mrs. identity to prevent myself from being hurt
i discarded the Mrs. identity to try something bold and got something i couldn't handle
i fell, not exactly in love, but something similar, with someone whom i never thought i would
i saw how freaky law of attraction can be
i struggled with many things in life, academic, home, relationships, etc etc etc
i saw how a healthy person crumble
i lost count of how many times i cried, more than the previous year
i wondered about many things
i became impulsive
i was lost, and still am
i hurt many people around me
i didn't do a good job on many things
i didn't really get what i wanted with law of attraction
i was hurt, and still am
i made many mistakes
i hated myself at one point
i felt afraid and lonely
i did many things never in my whole life i would dare to
and the list goes on and on and on and i simply don't wish to continue. i just hope, i can find strength in myself once again to pick myself up at this point of time, after the hurting, the struggles, the thinking and all that stuff people go through when they are at the bottom of the pit.
indeed it was a painful year, but as they say, only when we feel pain, we'll let go and move on. and why do we fall? it is so we can learn to pick ourselves up. and i don't even know why i'm crying now.
to this person in particular, though i don't think you'll be reading this, nor you know who you are, just want to say sorry, and i didn't mean it.
