Sunday, November 9, 2008
honto ni tadaima.
(really, i'm home)
wakaranai dake do, kyo wa nani mo tsukanai da. doshite mo, zetai mukashi no tanoshi kata mono wa sagasete. yahari, kotai wa zutto soba ni iru.
(i don't know why, but i didn't feel like doing anything today. i don't care how but i wan to find back what i love doing most in the past. and true enough, the answer was just right in front of me)
"jibun no kizu wa, jibun de omoyo. ikite ireba, kizu wa itsuka ierun desu. ato wa nokorun keredo..."
("we must bear our own injuries. as long as we are alive, the injuries will heal, even if they leave scars...")
tashikani ne. ore tachi, kono sekai de irun no toki de, dose kizui tan da. are wa zettai. demo, hitori doka, nakama to ishoni doka, ikite ireba, kizu zettai ierun da.
(how true. as long as we live, no doubt we will suffer some injuries, that's certain. but whether or not we are alone or with people we treasure, as long as we are alive, the injuries will heal)
dakara, arigatou. mata nakushi jatan da. demo kondo no namida wa kanashimi no namida janai, ureshi no namida desu.
(that's why, thank you. although i cried again, but this time wasn't tears of sadness, but rather tears of joy)
omoi dashita, naze anime no saoundo toraku wa dai suki da, toku ni shizukani to heiwa no merodi da. tashikani, kona merodi wa choto kanashi da, demo sono toki, ore zettai, kando ni narimashita. ano merodi, maru de ore ni shabete tan da.
(i just remembered, why i love anime soundtrack so much, especially those melodies that are peaceful and quiet. though they sound quite sad, but at that time, i'll definately be touched. it's as if the melody is speaking to me)
"daijyobu, omae no kanashi, wakatan da, omae hitori janai, mina wa onaji ja."
(it's ok, i understand your sadness, you are not alone, everyone's the same)
honto ni kanshashimashita, ima no inochi de. yokereba, ore honto ni, ima no jotai de tsuzukete. dakara, Raiin wa modori mashita. haha, nigasa nai wa yo, kondo koso.
(i'm really greatful for the live i'm leading now. if possible, i want it to continue on. because Raiin has returned, and haha this time i'm not letting her escape)
wakatan da, ore mada mada da. dakara kondo Raiin, mata yoroshiku onegaishi masu. yorokon no mono, mata tsukuru desho? ishoni ore tachi no shiyawase ni sagasete.
(i know i still have a long way to go. that's why Raiin, i'll need your guidance again. let's rebuild those that we enjoy, and search for our happiness)
okaieri, Raiin...
(welcome back, Raiin)
