Tuesday, November 18, 2008


happy bdae angie and steffi! may the forces be with you two happy Scorpios, haha. sorry couldn't be attending your celebrations, but you'll still have my best wishes.

suddenly i feel super lost. had a long long chat with pal until she started sprouting nonsense (whahahaha. ROM...). then when i hung up i look at the length of the call, 3 hrs and 24 mins forgot how many seconds le. sorry pal i was a bit distracted at the end, and this time tables turned and i was the one stoning at the other end and people prompted me to 'hey, talk leh'... never happened to me before, oh wait it did, but i guess, it certainly is weird to be the one stoning on the phone...

i think, i lost count of how many long phone calls i had already, usually i remember when i still talk to pal on phone it was never beyond 2 hours, because someone will be calling her phone and i'll hang up, (i'm considerate pls...) hmm... it's only recently that my calls start to shoot to 3 hours and even until 4 hours plus...

ok i know i'm making a huge fuss about phone calls, and compared to others i know my amount is minuscule. but for me, for someone who has a histoy record of off-ing my phone for 3 days and no caller alerts no messages, talking on the phone out of a sudden is quite surprising. and quite honestly, i love talking on the phone. and i love the long phone calls, 'intellectual' conversations. haha. and i found out that i got to know people better, and myself better.

but i guess, things aren't the same anymore. for whichever reason. sometimes i wonder hahaha, if self-fulfilling prophecy is really evident in our daily lives. and i think i know the answer to that. perhaps that should explain this whole thing.

and i told pal last night, 'i felt as though i lost a friend'.

meeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeek

i guess that's the reason why the lost-ness. and despite all my efforts of containing it, i still need to admit that pal's horoscope findings were rather accurate, especially the last one, made me felt as though i was scanned by bionic eyes and three times x-ray... super exposed.

well, all in all it explains alot of things. whether or not i'll admit, i still have to say that it's pretty true, spot on, in fact, 100% accurate... ok that's exaggerating.

the part on libras being narcissistic, well, at the moment, when i look into the mirror in the mornings and before i take a bath, i'm loving my hair. it's starting to grow back, ok that was crap, it IS growing back. and finally i'm rid of that horrible short hair that was cut on impulse and i totally regretted it.

hair hair, grow faster. haha let me go back to the length i had during secondary school whahahaha.

i hate the world, for treating my family this way. i hate how the world turned my dad this way. i hate how the hospital functions so slowly and making me wait in agony the results of my dad's diagnosis. in fact, i'm starting to hate everything.

LOA is not working. but if LOA is true, i'm digging my own grave...

one acronym

GND

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