Monday, October 20, 2008
another thanks to Jia^2, and shi hui for the lovely pouch which saved my day.
finally played pool, but NOT what i expected. if i had known, i'll keep my bloody mouth shut... bloody playing with two pros, and i was right, cleared half the table even before i sink any. RAAAAH.
grads ice for learning how to play pool.
hectic week, near death situations, just like how the bus uncle can miss me not going down the bus and continued to drive into the parking lots for buses...
hmm... been wondering, if what i did that time was right or not. because i certainly didn't expect this to reach this point. but sometimes, i do realise i made the wrong decision, or perhaps i didn't do enough. but either way, as confused and lost as i might be, i'm sure after the training from handling 4 assignments in 4 windows at one time should have taught me to be stronger to face other challenges in life.
and even it turns out to be a wrong decision, perhaps one day i'll look back and conclude i shouldn't have done it or just back out of it, i think, i can only say 'sorry', i'm just not of that caliber.
things have certainly changed alot. gone is Mrs. Jaegerjaques, long gone are those girls that never made it to Raiin's level. but i know, i need to find Raiin back again. and that's something, i intend to do by returning, this time, with my head held high, as i have told my mum. i'm glad and relief that day i finally won her approval. i guess i've always hoped for it, but never expect to even achieve that.
at least it is a step out. but by discarding Mrs. Jaegerjaques, it does make me weaker. unless i recover Raiin, else i'll really be saying sorry at the end of the day to people whom i never in a million years want to.
