Saturday, July 19, 2008
i think i should really take back what i said some time ago. i remember saying 'i don't emo, i get angry'...
i think that's kinda fake, now that i think, i AM emo-ing. for several reasons.
1. being left out
2. loss of entertainment
3. i dunno how to answer somebody's question
4. and why is it that the book andrew saches made us painstakenly read for a slaughering exam is so true elsewhere but doens't seem to apply here in singapore and i find myself in the situation where there's no escape
5. why is it that i felt as though i was being betrayed
6. victimized for all sorts of nonsense
7. going to die of another slaughtering exam because i haven't started revision. (i wonder why is it that always at the eve of exams i'll blog when i should be studying)
i sense that there's something wrong in life. but just can't pinpoint what. somehow, somewhere, something went wrong and i didn't know.
and as much as i'm a control freak, it tears me apart to know that i'm out of control of something and emo-ing in a corner.
if only i can stand out in that heavy rain outside of my window and get wet and cold just for the fun of it.
damn it.
teared for a while when i saw the pillars of support was guarded by Shuuhei!!! and Ikkaku!!! and Yumichika. and i dunno why... kira is there also. that guy, seriously, what my uni-mates are saying 'chap ji ka'. whahahaha ya, kira you sux! lousy emo crappy sadistic brainless loser! wahahahahaa!!!!
whatever.
i saw shuuhei and i'm like 'omg!!! you are still here!!!!'
but then suddenly i remembered.
WHERE IS GRIMMJOW!!!!! HOW IS HE DOING!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! OMG!!!!!!! HELP!!!!
renji is fine, byakuya definately, rukia is fighting, ishida can ignore, sado is also there, but where is GRIMMJOW?!?!!
ok i think i should really go back to study, before i really screw myself for it...
hungry.... where's my chicken rice!!! and my chocolate!!! and my ice-cream!!!!
pika pika. meeeeeeeeeeeeeek!
