Wednesday, May 21, 2008
i realise i have such a tendency to blow things up to unmeasurable degrees when it spawn from just a little sparkle.
and just as stupid as i am, i know i put in quite majority of my efforts to seek approval from people, to some extent i wonder within the people whom i should do so, am i doing it on Zero Sum basis? meaning sacrificing someone else's to satisfy another's. that, i don't know.
i haven't come a long way of reading mangas and animes, as far as the saying 'once bitten twice shy' goes, i think it's fairly hard to convince me when it comes to judging of someone's character.
i told myself once, can't remember when, but i did say that before, after being tricked by something which i once again can't remember, that never judge a book by it's cover, and never judge a character until the story ends.
and now, i realise i should be slapping myself in the face, as i have officially made Uchiha Itachi my 3rd brother.
yes, it's weird. i've been throwing insults and curses at this guy for close to 4 years and now i'm making him my brother. but sometimes, just like Byakuya and Renji, both are people whom i hated, but in the end liked. and Itachi really really reminds me of Byakuya, but i guess Itachi was much much a higher level than his bleach counterpart.
we all know, that sometimes people do things that we hate and we hate them for it, but after some time, we realise that they did it for our own good, or at least, a greater good.
sometimes we may think we know someone, but actually, we don't.
as such, i've once again made the mistake of judging someone, but as the saying goes again, it might be better to put my conclusion after another few weeks, after the truth is really out, then i make my official declaration.
but frankly, (don't say i'm desperate) i hope nothing of these sort happen in real life. because i don't want to be hating someone to realise in the end this person isn't as bad as i thought, and in the end i like this person. just as with Byakuya, Renji, Grimmjow and now Itachi.
i know Shoujo mangas usually depict such scenes, where rivals turn into friends, sometimes even lovers. i'll say it's quite fun, but in my case, when i do say i don't like someone, i really don't. and i really don't want to slap myself once again, and realise it's another case of my 'brothers'.
because i know, my brothers and darling, they are after all virtual. something which i know won't interfere with my real life, at least, not that much. but in real life, reality, sometimes, a mistake can just be too grave to be made, and an early judgmet may just be the end of something that has not even begun.
