Tuesday, April 29, 2008
play it well when i'm super angsty
yes, i find that i can play Taiko no Tatsujin, in case you guys dunno what that is, it's that drumming game at the arcade, well on the psp when i'm super angsty about some things.
in fact, maple isn't the outlet anymore, hitting monsters and stuffs like that can no longer satisfy my needs of venting out anger and passing time.
and mind you, it's not really those weirdos i met in there that turn me off...
perhaps it is already conditioned, that i have in fact lost interest in that game as i've thank someone in particular earlier.
and sadly taiko no tatsujin is so much interesting that i can even get 100% hit when i take like eons just to level in maple.
in fact, i was suddenly reminded just now about something...
"Suen, a word of advice. never come in maple when you're not feeling good. you'll feel worse after that, i have experience. it's the people here you meet."Mr Campfire loaded with petrol and gasoline and oil said this to me, and i find it super ironic at this point of time, after the whole hoo-haa about sub chracters and membership...and if you are not happy about me not answering your questions when you demand it when i'm under the request of your dearly beloved, and the way i answer your questions with rhetorical questions, feel free to blow up. because you have absolutely no reason to be on my good side because i'm not going to continue to be subjected to your usage of putting in good words in front of your dearly beloved, or at the very least not to talk behind your back. we are not talking economics here, where demand equals to supply.
and in light of the issue with the levels and stuff like these, i'm sick and tired of being invisible all the time and playing little miss smiley 'hiya'. frankly i hate the feeling of being in somewhere and don't feel belonged at all. and i'm really sick and tired of experiencing the almighty debilitative emotion:
fallacies of approval
and all the more i sign in, seeing that little title under my name and watching the chat box fill with things i don't feel like knowing and seeing even when closed, the more irritable i get.
and i'm ignoring my mother's weird stares of me playing psp and the com at the same time with two different musics creating noise in the house.
but at the same time, i feel compelled to not drag innocent people into my ranting because there are people who make me feel 'yes, i am a Gu@rd!@n', and not some poor lost soul out there.
and i sincerly thank these 6 people.
l0++@l!, ph03n!xqu33n, Sempai, l3s, f!0n, and d0v3ly
for making Eliard your friend.
frankly, it was only a game.
people just have to go in there and complicate things.
