Sunday, April 20, 2008
hell bent on getting angry
(3rd edited version. the first and second version was, i think too harsh, but that was what i felt originally when i typed it out, but in light of being a communicator and that i don't want to hurt the innocent, i decided to edit this whole thing.)
this entry was
originally hell bent on
venting out all frustrations and agony and the fact that i once again slept at daybreak due to a series of unfortunate and entirely unforseen circumstances which has NOTHING WHAT SO EVER TO DO WITH ME
apparently i should have read that chapter on conflict mangement and did Honolulu's assignment and that particular lesson seriously.
as a communication major, i am ashamed to say i failed dramatically, BUT
it's not my fault if people out there are materialistic and superficial and under that mask which says 'lvl doesn't matter, just have fun', they truely mean the opposite.
want me to say something else? you guys have no common sense to tell that something big has happened and continue to type blatent STUPID things yadda yadda yadda.
but once again, it just goes to show that whoever made me, has decided to replace my convincing power with some other minute abilities that has yet to come to use.
it happened 3 times already. and i swear ON PAIN OF DEATH, i'm not going to say anymore, unless being asked. fair enough?
frankly i should be able to go back to psy 101 at 11 or 11.30 i freaking hell can't remember. but just as everything was going well, bombshell was dropped and all hell broke loose, for the infiniteth time that i CANNOT BE BOTHERED to keep track.surprisingly, the previous time i was hell freaked out, but this time, now that i looked at the situation, i was pretty calm. i still had the mood to stare at my notes, although nothing got in.
things got pretty complicated here and there, but all i can say is that, i saw no concrete link of the element that lead to the huge conflict. or perhaps there was no link in the first place.
but an avenue to vent out accumulated frustration from one individual?
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nevermind, instead of saying everything, i should just accept the fact that
i'm a noob who nobody BOTHERS to listen except one or two kind souls, and you are the one who can click the button 'invite' in that guild window, and people call you 'boss'.frankly i'm wasting my time thinking about this issue, which somewhat involved me, but in actual fact, it DOESN'T.
lastly to
Qian, i'm sorry for this entry, and through the phone at 3 am this morning when i told you i was angry,
I was,
and still am.
but i do owe you thanks, the person involved, for making me lose interest in Maple Story. 