Monday, February 18, 2008
just when i crossed the overhead bridge today to get to the stupid bustop i was handed something that, within the next second i flipped to a page where it has nothing whatsoever to do with its intended content.
frankly after stuffing it in my bag in the bus and decided that Burnout has more appeal that what i had, i couldn't help but flip through it when i got home, comfortably in front of my desk after a nice huge serving of porridge mum kindly bought me.
and i realise, how much truth it has in it and somehow, coincides with what i believe and hold true, but refuse to accept until this day. well, give me some benefit of doubt by saying that, i have already accepted that.after a while, i stuffed it out of sight and decided to... go back to watching what i am good at. Anime, and for god's sake, why the hell is Itou in D-Grayman playing an AKUMA???? where did my bitter sweet renji and prince charming tsuchiura went????then i remembered something i read in Interplay, bout Bridget Jones, and yes, watching it now.
and i've come to this conclusion.
I have got to stop torturing myself with hallucinations and meaningless hopes and dreams. if THAT's not self-abuse, nothing is.because this isn't a fairy tale, this is reality.
"Face it, Raiin! They can say otherwise, but you know the ultimate truth. So stop dreaming and wake up."i'm easily influenced by people, and no matter how something is small, it is contagious to me.
Raiin needs to get on her feet, finish up those tasks even if she has to disappear from life for the time being.
screw the monsters.in the dark is where she resides, and it is in the cold she will thrive.
screw the lightbulbs.has no need for a heart, so let's keep it frozen and nice.Icy Prison - 15 % completed Icy Fortress - 7% completed