Thursday, February 21, 2008


this is the 4th post of today. seriously something is wrong with me. but if you are seeing 3, that's because i decided to combine two. but technically it's 4 posts, a record.

i'm starting to understand what Takeda said that time, when his Maboroshi Hidari Ude is thought to be gone from him.

and now, i really appreciates what he says and understand it fully, after experiencing it myself. although, i don't have his Maboroshi Hidari Ude, and that my arm is still intact. but the psychological effect is, nevertheless the same as his.

Takeda, if you weren't on Kenichi's side, i swear i'll fall in love with you now, since you and Grimmjow happen to have blue hair. hehehehe

i think there's some truth about what communications studies say about people of the same personalities...

maybe that's why i love Grimmjow.... we both get irritated and angry very easily. and we almost never smile. and we are big bad mean people. we are unreasonable, rough and hate to bow down to anyone, despite living in the shadows of others most of the time. we like breaking rules, harbouring grudges, and the impulse to destroy things the instant we get irritated and angry. we hate those above us, and those who boss us around and cleaning up people's mess.

and last three things

1. what we want to convey to others, negative or positive, never went through to people

2. things never go our way, but others get what they want with the slightest little effort, while we suffer the consequences of losing an arm and being thrown aside, with a big mess to clean up which those who get what they want don't give a damn about.

3. we are always alone to fend for ourselves

Perhaps that's why the initial attraction was there, because the similarities is picked up unconsciously. and perhaps why i find solace and salvation in him. an anime character.

call me crazy and stupid, because i may very well be.

.~*^Twilight Ring^*~.: