Wednesday, January 2, 2008
farewell 2007, and hello 2008i hope the farewell includes all negative energy sort of thingy that happened in 2007....
ok, now for the new year, before we go to that, let's take a journey back and see what happened the prev year.
first, prominent incident is, well, i finally got my ears pierced. so yay for another accessory to put on myself.next was i screwed up Alvls. yes, i got horrible grades, which leads to a chain reaction of rejected uni applications here and there.following was the entry to Buffalo, which weeeell, quote jack again 'not so bad'. shall not elaborate because i think everything is on this blog in the previous entries.there after would beeeeeeeeeeeee, psp! yeah, pretty huge trouble with that, but now i have my 3, uh.... lovable hunks... should i even be using that word... (throwthings) all right, my three favourite people in the world, or rather, the other world, with me! (ohohoho) and well, the entry to the gaming world. i know i'm slow, so cut me some slack.
theeeen... there was this obsession with Grimmjow. weeeeeeell, i guess people might think i'm crazy, to be 'obsessed' with an anime character, buuuuut, at least i'm moving on isn't it? from stepping over that red line? (pats myself on the back) besides, you have all those people who are obsessed with idols and artises, so why is mine any difference? but the main point is yeah, to move on.uh, doesn't mean i'm not liking Byakuya anymore, just that he has migrated to a higher level of admiration and respect from me that's all. and welcome Renji. frankly, of the 3, the one who fits in my 'tastes and preferences' is Renji. why? both Grimmjow and Byakuya are already great people, they have their sense of honor and guts and whatever that makes a great man a hero, at least in my opinion. (i added that last line to accommodate my fellow BLEACH maties who happens to have different obsessions.) but somehow, Renji is a higher level than them, despite born into a class of lower status than the two of them. he talks more than Byaku and Grimu, obvious... he has more guts than the two of them, in my opinion. and he cares more about people than the two of them, well at least he showed it and not hide it to try to make an impact. and of course, he's more sociable than the two of them. he jokes around, have fun blah blah blah. that's different from the two. ok i better stop, before i contradict myself and starts hitting myself in the head... well, if only he could be a bit more gentle, literately. haha.
but that's kinda true isn't it? from the way i see, he isn't as good looking as Byaku and Grimu, but he possess the qualities which are hard to come by. so yes. that brings me to my next point, my 'tastes and preferences' has become more concrete.
side note, to
Qianz and
Ling2, please stop
'kaien-ing' and
'aizen-ing' on msn, thanks... we don't need another Soul Society war here... already it's chaos there...
back on track, yes, in this year i've become more emo... (shrugs) which puts me into a more critical situation because, being emo is most destructive if i'm aspiring to be Raiin. so yes, i should start to train up my brain a little, to think fast and be ahead of my own thoughts so as to control emotions. never said it was going to be easy, but then again, this is the exact phrase that led people to be critical of themselves... and yes, i know that ever since i stepped into UB, and have seen my fair share of self-destruction. and yes, i pledge allegiance to the forehead protector of Konoha and the Zanpakutou of Shinigamis.
why have i mentioned Konoha? yes, i'm sort of back to Naruto-ing. not that i left there, since i'm still waiting at my com to read the latest chapter of Naruto from Jump, and cursing and swearing at Pein and whoever that was for murdering my most respected Jiraiya-sama. (!@#$%) ok, allow me to explain why i said that it was part of the happenings in 2007.
Dearly beloved Sannin Jiraiya-sama said, that he was a huge failure. (Sannin, to those who don't know what it is, is 'The Legendary Three Ninjas'. the title says alot so no more explanation) why? because he tried to court Tsunade for countless times, all the way from childhood up to 52/53 years old and still failed. he failed to save his own mentor, our beloved Sandaime-sama. he failed to stop his friend from becoming one of the greatest villain in the ninja world. he failed to save his own disciple our another beloved Yondaime-sama, aka Naruto's papa. so he said he was a failure. then, as he was dying, he remembered Yondaime-sama, who asked him to give the name he used for his main character in his novels to his soon-to-be-born child. and yes, you've guessed it, Naruto. because the character was determined, strong-willed, and do beyond what's best for the issue. Yondaime-sama also said that the character resembled Jiraiya-sama alot.
so this leads to a conclusion, that the greatest ninja isn't determined by how many crazy jutsus he can use, but rather at the level of his never-give-up-ness. and when he finally understood that, despite his heart had stopped bleeding, (curse you Pein), he regained conscience and did what he had to. so here's my take on this, i give up on alot of things, be it small or huge, yes i'm a lazy person, but not as lazy as Shikamaru though, because i bothered to write my answers down during a test. but Jiraiya-sama has certainly struck some chords in me, and reminded me what happened back in the days of Olvls when i modeled after Naruto. despite him being a huge pervert, one who delight his days at peeping at the ladies hot springs and the fondness of anything errotic, he possess what made Byakuya Grimmjow and Renji my favourites. for bleach, i look beyond the pervert-ness of Kyoraku, i don't see anything great, despite him being a captain and holds one of two of the rare twin Zanpakutous. but for Jiraiya-sama, i see huge accomplishments and greatness. frankly, IMO, if Tsunade would accept him and not punch him whenever he made a move, he would have given up his novels and stop being a perv... i mean... well, you know what i mean... and please, think straight, i'm not a perv thanks...
so yes, thank you for the reminder... and i'll remember you forever, our respected and beloved Jiraiya-sama.... one minute of silence please... (and take that hat off your head)
lets see... what else... oh yea, i've written two fics, BL fics, on ff.net... which is rather rare... and OOC of me... since i'm pretty much against it at first, but then well, things change... and my favourite pair now is ByakuyaXRenji. go ahead, sue me.
what else is there... oh yea... Harry Potter and the Final Judgement, and the Order of Disappointment. why the hell didn't he die? ok, i shall not make such a big fuss about it. that's history.oh yea. there's something. Zeph said, 'really cannot let you see stuff toys.', and Qianz agreed. ok, well, i like stuff toys. and i had bad influence okay.... not my fault entirely. and i'm surprised, or rather amused that the polar bear, my DARLING IceBerg has followed me though the past 3 years... amazing how time flies.... and now, i seem to have a thing for polar bears... i just saw a supeeeeeeeeeeeer cute polar bear in taka, and a small tiny supeeeeeeeeeer cute polar bear in kino. ok, before people starts getting the wrong impression, i like ALL cute stuffies. end of story. bye bye. see you later. (btw that was a quote from shrek)soooooo, what's next.... there's the jap trip which i think it's a waste and not a waste at the same time... no need to explain, pretty much in the other recent entry.uhm.... Mystery Case Files Madame Fate, yeah, another story in the other entry, freaky though... imagine that in 2 in the morning...
oh yes.... talk about regret.... i solemly swear that i shall not cut my hair SHORT to the extent that i can't tie it, anymore. that concave cut was a huge mistake. and i'm now sitting here, crying over my messy hair. and i'm going to do something about it tomorrow.so, i guess that's all i can think of for the past year, pretty horrible, if you count the mishaps. so onward.
2008. i spent the first day of 2008 playing Naruto. yes, not bleach. it's Naruto. 100 floors of Mygenjyo, damn you. and Orochimaru took me 6 rounds.... (
!@##$) and yes, all the 'masugu jibun no kotoba makene, ore no nido da!' (translation, i will not go back on my words, this is my ninja way) yes, reminders reminders reminders. frankly, he should change that to 'i will never give up' since that's pretty much the basis of it all. but well, if he wants that.
and also i spent it listening to National Treasure 1's soundtrack. I LOVE YOU TREVOR RABIN!!!!!! another one favourite composer on my list. and talk about National Treasure, i just love that movie and it's sequel. full of sacarsm and jokes. and I LOVE YOU RILEY POOLE!!!!!!!!! whahaha.ok, let's not make any resolutions here since i'm not someone who likes to have goals when my life is pretty much mundane. the usual be good, play piano, learn songs, study, get good grades, drop ten pounds is always there no matter how i rephrase my resolutions anyway...
but perhaps some thoughts. i think one issue bothering me, unwillingly, thanks to my mum in particular and the irritating observant-ness of myself is regarding, sigh, (i cannot believe the words are comming out of me mouth 'quote jack sparrow'), relationships, and i mean that in the most common meaning.
i myself am not looking forward to a year where i may/might/would/should/possibly/perhaps and all those words of chance and possibility and probability, that i would, like many people say 'fall in love'. personally, i will myself to 'not believe in love'. don't ask me why, i'm sick of explaining it, so if you don't want me to barf on your shoes, don't ask.
believe me, like i said to Sapphire, it gets harder as we grow older. and i have personally, thanks to my mum's constant naggings, thought out a scenario, with Raiin, meaning the better, much much much better version of me, or rather who i aspire to be, and my conclusion is a big gigantic red cross. so if Raiin can't do it, no need to say, i can't either. and before you can say that real life is different from scenarios, i'll say this upfront. the place i went, does not have anyone remotely close to Jiraiya/Ichigo/Shuuhei/Neji/ Lee/Jack/Kaien/Hitsugaya/Naruto or any of the good guys in BLEACH and Naruto or anywhere in the manga/anime world, let alone my three darlings, Byakuya, Renji and Grimmjow. so yeah. point proven, case closed.
and i'm not expecting to meet anyone anyway, so yes, i think it's time to go back to the old old self. older than what i previously said and live on with it. and i'm starting to see what the meaning of a phrase i saw in the papers ages ago... someone said that 'valentine's day is like halloween for singles, couples on the streets looks like scary creatures, haunting you of your current status'. or something along those lines. and yes, despite everything, and despite my character/personality, i started to see what he meant... ok, i know i'm not in any position to say that, since i have myself to blame, so yeah, let's just end the tale here. that's halloween... frankly, i like halloween, but not when i'm the lone ranger in the midst of a herd of halloween costume-wearing people.
