Friday, October 5, 2007
oooho. just came home from meeting
Zephyris! haha, second post again today, but just have a lot to say, apparently. haha.
anyway i left school pretty early, since i went to the earlier time slot for
CSE (dxr emoti) and was playing
'puppet and puppeteer' with
Karel. pretty dumb, i manage to figure the whole thing out pretty easily and made him dot the entire page with beepers whahaha! (laughing and pointing emoti) and phew, i manage to do myself justice on the History test, another full (peace), although i seriously think that that test was crap because
1. i didn't really study for it 2. i was sleeping in the library prior to the test 3. i got a high score for my phone game before studying for the test in the library 4. the test has an ESSAY which full marks is virtually impossible 5. the teacher marks too leniently... then was squeezing on the mrt with people from SP, and apparently i think these three guys are talking the loudest in the cabin and taking a hell lot of space despite their bamboo figure. and guess what? i saw them in Comics Connection in PS after my dinner.... talk about small world... (
Zeph's blue face emoti)
i am NEVER going to wear that shirt to school anymore.... you know the thing about clothes is that, within 1 or 2 weeks if you continue to wear the same 'pattern' of clothes, people 'stereotype' you to be which and which. as i can recall, the first two weeks i wore nothing but T-shirts all the way, which makes me look like a
typical tom-boy (by the way is what i am and want, peace). hence on monday when i wore the Japanese schoolgirls' sweater, i've got 3 people telling me i look nice in it. ohkay... not a bad start. and then today i wore this shirt that makes me look like an 'auntie going to work'!!!! and the same 3 people said the same thing... well, i'm not saying anything negative about it, but just like communication's lecture, the point where 'presence of first impression' plays and affect people's perceptions. well, pretty true isn't it? (peace) the real reason why i won't wear that shirt is that one of the buttons came off, and it is bloody restrictive to my actions.... and i just had to 'act smart' and bring that bag... which bloody makes me look like an 'auntie'!!!! GAAH!
oh by the way i bought a
lobster. wahahaha! (laughing and pointing emoti) 2.5 bucks. (peace) and it's lying flat on my table now with its beady eyes staring into space. i said that lobster's name is
'heigani' and
Zeph was darn irritated. i dunno why....
Heigani is played by one of her favourite seiyuus in the first place.... (you didn't forget did you,
Zeph?)
well, i just saw something just now which actually brings me to attention about something. the thing about social network, social space, it's rather shaky and uncertain to actually gauge the frontiers of it.
let's say, if one day, one of your acquaintance/friend makes friends with someone which you didn't have a good impression on vice versa. so what happens next? awkwardness when stuck between the two? excuse yourself when they are talking? try in vain to join in conversation?
i mean how do you judge a person in the first place? i know and believe first impression counts and matters a lot. i must say i'm not exactly the kind people would want to approach, which is the truth as experience has come to tell. and that i inherited the fierce and arrogant looking face from my mother... but i try at least to leave a neutral impression on people. and when i start to get to know people, they'll know how crazy and idiot a person i am. and if they are nice, i'm nice to them. if they irritate the hell out of me, the doors to
Raiin's Hell will open and the
chief devil from there will come out.
but what if the problem doesn't lies with you but the opposite party? what if out of the blue this person just stare at you with a menacing glare that obviously says 'don't come near me, you are not my type of friend?' what if they just don't want to even acknowledge you?
or, what if they see you in a different light (negative)? thinks that you are not worth a friend since you are not competent and a friendship with you is not beneficial? or, even worse, they see you as a threat to them?
so the story ends with two parties not being friends just because of communication breakdown and miscommunication? i think that's pretty sad. which is why i say, there are people who study communication for the sake of studying and passing exams.
but i guess i can't blame them because, though i'm trying my best to apply the concepts i've learnt in everyday life, i still have yet master the skill. changes can be made, but it is a matter of willingness and perseverance. nobody can see 'effort made', but through some mediums we can see if the person is trying or not. but then, sometimes it's a matter of choice. there are people who don't change because of the benefits of the current situation. there's also ignorance. nobody is perfect in the world, but people can work towards perfection, which is what life is about in the first place. changing ourselves to have a better tomorrow.
but well, as of last last thursday, or is it another thursday i forgot, i've lost my direction of perfection and my 'compass' thanks to a certain someone, who took my words literately, which i assume if that's the case, then that's really it. i did say before i'm a peace lover, but somehow people, not just this someone, seems to always take what i say to the obvious wrong way. no idea why,
Zeph and
Qianz and the others didn't seem to have this problem...
i'm thinking of clearing one of my blogs and post all the sequences of Raiin's stuff. since i made quite a few of them, and it'll be a waste if i just leave them forgotten.
hugging
IceBerg and staring with droopy eyes... droopy eyes, oh yea, i used that phrase in one of my romance stories... ouch... that one was explicit! oops haha!
