Friday, September 14, 2007
one of my best friends have just gone insane...
ZEPHYRIS!!! YOU ARE INSANE!!!!!you know?! that is soooo OOC of you to say that! omg X 100,000 times. yeah, i know you're into that, you say you're into that, but i never thought,
NEVER THOUGHT YOU'RE IN THAT DEEP!!!!!!!! WHAHAHAHAHA!!!!!omg.... to think you even used 'sexy voice'....
this is soooooo OOC of you!!!!
have you gone COMPLETELY INSANE?! WHAHAHAHA!gosh.... eh, who's that you said got a
'sexy voice' ar? let me go check
*CLICK CLICK* *WAIT* *CLICK CLICK*ok.. HAR! (faints after realising who he is)
ZEPH!!!!!! OMG YOU REALLY INSANE LE!!!!! (Dies from laughter) You actually said he's got a sexy deep tone....
YOU ACTUALLY SAID THAT ABOUT HIM!!!!! eh you are so biased!!! (Brawling emoti) how can you say he's sadistic? and er... who else... oh yea!
HOW CAN YOU SAY HE'S STOIC?!?!?!?! Bleach B Station? you remember that don't you?! and 'the going crazy voice'?!?!?! ok la... that one i have to agree with you... haha....
oh. i get it. the next time i call your phone, and if Shuuhei or Kenichi or even AYA answers, then i ask you
'you crazy ar... use their voice for answering machine to play a prank on me isit?' then you reply me
'no la... that one my boyfriend.'IS THAT WHAT'S GOING TO HAPPEN?!
whaha X 100,000 million times.dang le... you know?! i read that in the LIBRARY!!!! and you know i'm struggling to keep myself from laughing out loud, and saying 'you're totally insane' aloud?! i think my friends there think i'm nuts...
but thanks for that. i was about to go crazy at that time and your entry saved me from the ultimate insanity... school just sux when you have long breaks and a squealing crowd outside the library hahaha.Ok Zeph, you know all of the above, i'm just joking with you. haha. and thanks for staying with me all these days, listening to me crap and all that. haha. next time buy you a drink.gosh... talk about school... today the peeps from 'Hey Gorgeous' came to our school, and there was a big buzz about it. well, nothing to do with me anyway.
just bugged about something. yep, i don't have instincts, and even if i have, i don't trust it. simply because most of the time it doesn't work, or i'm given the false impression. so i prefer to go by the analytical method, which sorts of make up for my lack of instincts since i was born a high C personality and ultra-sensitivity. coupled with picky-ness and keen observation skills.
(peace sign)thing about this is that, when you get constant failure on one aspect of life, you tend to be careful when the same situation comes on and take another route to avoid failure. i mean, that's human nature isn't it?
then again, perhaps it's due to how i was brought up. me mum teaches me stuff for school, dad trains me in skills you don't learn on books. i'm thankful for that, because if it wasn't for me dad, i won't be who i am today. but people usually don't give a damn about these important skills. and to add to matters, they chose to put me down on that, either by saying that i think too much or i'm making things complicated. but when the time comes when things don't go correctly because they refused to listen to me, they either take me as the scapegoat or say
'why didn't you say that earlier'. 'i did, you just didn't want to listen.'quite frankly, i'm sick and tired of these, what i call crap, which is why i chose to
'forever hold my silence', and to put it very crudely and nastlily
'watch them die'. i mean that's what happen to those who tries to warn people, but gets slapped in the face.
remember that story about the king who went hunting and wanted to drink from a river but his trusty eagle just wouldn't let him? whenever the king picks up water with a bowl the eagle swoops down and knock it over. the king got so frustrated and killed the eagle but at the same time lost his desire for the drink. and when they travelled upriver and found a dead poisonous snake submerged in the water, with its poison draining into the river, they realised the eagle was trying to save the king. but what did he do? he killed him. ironic!well, just like many things, i'm sure people usually look at only one side of the story. yes the moral of the story is to think before you act, because everything happens for a reason. and if you want it, throw in some of that friendship thing, where people is just trying to help and not harm.
but do people learn that? i don't think so.a coin has two sides. if you look at it from another perspective, what if this story is not told human to human but Eagle to Eagle? or animal to animal? what would the moral of the story be from their point of view? i think i can answer that question. the moral of the story is to leave people be after you tried to help and they don't appreciate it. because you just may lose out, or in the worse case scenario, be sacrificed for nothing.in the past, i can say that i have no discipline in anything. but now since i can force myself to study something, even if i have been staring at the same piece of notes for the millionth time and the result is i got full marks for that test, even though it's a simple and somewhat braindead and lame test, i shall discipline myself in other aspects of life, something which i have never been able to do so in the past. i just hope that when time comes, that little voice in my head would remind me of it and stop myself from taking the same route again.
oh yea... the old wound has just opened up again. hmm...
Zeph! know any good medical ninjas around? i'm running out of Chakra to even heal myself... 