Monday, May 14, 2007
apparently blogger is unhappy with me because until now the problem with the stupid posting page has not been fixed...
few things happened since my last post and i shall address them one by one, and unfortunately i doubt anyone's going to notice i actually posted something....
first, the maid's back, with some problems for me.
problem no.1, my mum has entrusted the entire kitchen to me. which plainly means that i would have to cook dinner everyday... bloody hell.
problem no. 2 is that she, the maid, has taken a piece of flesh out of her finger that day trying to act hero, and yes, i'm not saying that because i hate her or what but that's the truth and now i'm stuck with potatoes and cabbages and all things that i have hated in my entire life. vegies...
problem no. 3 and the most important problem of all is that the above mentioned problems 1 and 2 require the handling of knifes. and the most unfortunate and entirely unforseeable circumstances that i happen to be AFRAID of knifes. (don't ask me why because i don't know, everyone has their fears, so don't laugh at me being afraid of knifes when you are afraid of the dark or spiders) so i'm thrown into a the worse situation where i'm doing most of the work under survillance and brandishing a murderous weapon.
that's mainly the problem at home, outside my room.
next thing is that the other day i went to watch spidy 3. ok fine. Spiderman 3. (happy?) well i thought it was strange at first because when the news of spidy 3 (shut up) came out i told myself i'm not going to watch it. and like so many times in my life, i swallowed my own words. bloody hell second time.
to be honest, the 3rd take was good. compared to the 2nd take which downright sucked... the first was ok, since it's all the begining of everything. 3rd was good. why? because of the split personality thing (hehehe) throws in some of the hilarity where the nerd transform into a nutter. and also, hehehehehe (evil laugh) (trumpet fanfair) Harry Osborn!
"Still rooting for you, mate!"
ya that was what i told wan qian in the midst of shuddering from the cold from Vivo city's Golden Village iMax theater. yup that's my fav character from spidy... i mean, look at it this way. you put Peter Parker and Harry Osborn side by side... ok that's a bad example... equal people's going to choose either one since they have their strengths... er... ok, i've got it. put Spider-man (there's a hyphen in it... dunno that until now) and New Goblin side by side, nearing the end of the movie. NEARING THE END OF THE MOVIE I SAY!!!! yup. who came to spidie's rescue? who sent him gliding through the air? who sacrificed himself to save a friend????
"Am i disturbing something?" he shouted to the reuniting couple before they start snogging in times of peril.
so you see? that's precisly why i say he's da best! and you want another reason? put tobey maguire and james franco side by side, need me to say more??? (laughing hysterically)
well nothing much to say about Pirates of the Caribbean At World's End, since it's coming out soon and those who know me would know i'm now in a frenzy (not obsessed) with it. and so is shrek, since i've pretty much know the storyline and some of the funny parts. 'i've been abra kadabra-ed into a ....' said donkey in puss's body. neither is Harry Potter, both movie 5 and book 7. just that movie 5 is going to be horrible since Harry or should i say Daniel Radcliffe is going to start shrieking his lungs out and his voice breaks literately. and that he's going to be snogging someone eewwwww to that. and that in book 7 he's going to die. great. can't wait to see Daniel Radcliffe do that death scene. i'll bring party poppers and banners that read 'potter died'. and be the only one in the world to celebrate. have this odd and vague feeling that i'm going to eat those words in future... nevermind. that's in the future.
well maybe my most concern is with the accessories making i'm into now. i'll admit that i'm not that good, since it's not my strength at the arts and craft and er... creativity. but then again i don't know what i'm good at. it has always been in my motive in life to be an all-rounder. but now i feel rather empty, since all the skills i have are just half ways or starters, nothing touching the level labelled 'expert' or even remotely 'good'.
some things that i've made, i don't even dare take pictures of them to put in the com. often ending up cutting the lines and wasting elastic fishing-lines and putting the beads back to my box. and the days just pass me by with no new presentable things.
while reading the harrypotter series, first book the other day, there was this mention of the mirror of erised. i wonder if i were to stand in front of it, what would i see? at first the silliest thought that i would see myself only which means i'm a happy person entered my mind, but then i thought harder, i thought maybe if i stood there, i'll see Raiin. after all, she was created by me, portrayed after several alterations of me, and lived the life which i can't. things that i can't have in my life, things that i can't do in my life, and the life i can't live in my life, Raiin does it for me. her life, certainly is the extreme ends of mine, more dangerous, more fun, more better, yet more tougher than mine. so i guess i live in two worlds, the real and the virtual. but i guess i'm putting too much effort in Raiin, because sometimes i would just forget for a moment that i'm the pathetic and useless suen hui actually. virtual world might not be a benefiting place to be in, but it certainly is somewhere where i can take a break. i have tried to become Raiin, but there are things in life that can never change and things that are done that cannot be undone...
jack's compass? the one that points to the thing you want most in this world? i haven't given much thought about it, since it cannot be pointing towards Raiin as she doesn't exist. it'll probably point to myself. which throws into contradiction with the mirror as the thing i want gone is myself and yet the compass points to me. making no sense? i thought so.
that's just life in the dumps. i just hope that i get to see pirates, shrek and harry potter when the time comes, and not to miss them like every other time. because if i were to miss any of them, i'll truly never forgive life.
